I walk alone... I hope you'll join me, someday
SO YES! A more upbeat one. I have kept myself busy the last couple of days... did a killer of a day on Thursday, worked all day, finished at 7pm (torture) and took myself to training. I think I was better for it, somehow. There was 5 of us, sweating it out in my teacher's Shed of HELL, it had to be about 40 degrees in there! I was pretty unaffected, sweat my ass off but I wanted to keep going! And GOING! Hahah they all shot me evil glares when I said I wanted to do training in the shed... they all wanted to go out into the court, not so hot. Weak.
Friday was another thing... work some more hours, then headed straight for my friend's place some 20 minutes from where I live. Got a little drunk and watched movies.. or more like, *I* watched movies, my friend carked it on the couch. But before that, I had the privelige of driving his mum's car to the Macca's drive-in, back in town. My mate was already drinkin so I was the designated driver. Haha fuckin weird, first time I had driven an auto, I can't believe she trusted me with it... but it was fun! Piss easy! Any of you auto drivers out there who can't get their license... fuck! That is so lazy. Anyway, nearly went off the road once as I was shovelling chips into my mouth and laughing while steering.. don't worry, no near fatal incident, I'm a greaaaat driver *grins like a maniac*
Tight and langey! Friday the firteenf.
I'm liking music again, the newie from Sevendust has grown on me, it's not the greatest but it's definitely speaking to me thanks to this pain I gotta live with. Forced on me. It's somewhat comforting... distracts me from silence, my thoughts. The silence in the biggest thing. I can NOT sit in a room anymore, with nothing on, no distractions and feel ok. When it's all quiet and late at night and lonely... I bleed. Feels like flies crawling within, emptiness.
Once in your life, you've gotta hear Godflesh. Makes me smiiiile.
Maybe I'll become some kind of social maniac after this... distract myself with anything. I have an invitation to go out tonight, but seriously, can't do it, I've got shit all in my bank! Sure, I wanna go get myself so trashed until I can't see straight, cos that's the fun of it.
I've got to go back there someday though. I have made a promise to myself. When I'm at the end of my rope. It'll happen.
Right now, I've gotta get ready for more martial art-sing, some more kicking ass, I kung-fooking good. Ohohh, what a marvellous play on words. *turns evil* I'm dangerous *grins*.
No, it's not the end.
But this is! EL FINE ~
Adam \m/\m/ >> stay metal! Keep it real! YEEAAAH! Oh man that feels so good to say, haven't in a long long time.