Writing this post is making me absurdly sad, but it will all be okay.
Oh, fandom. I miss you. I miss you so much. But I think for my own peace of mind I need to make it official: I'm giving you up, for a while.
I feel terrible leaving That Good Night hanging where it is, with Spike and Xander in such a difficult place. That story has an ending in my head, but it's in a very stuck place right now and I just don't have the energy to push through the stuck-ness.
I love writing, I love it so much. But it takes a kind of energy and focus that I just don't have these days (not to mention free time). It occurs to me that I don't see a lot of active writers in fandom with small children. Some, but not a lot. And there may be a reason for that!
And I don't think I can manage participation of the non-writing variety, either, not for now. Internet time is too hard to come by. And even a post like this is hard to write. My brain is too tired. The words are just too hard to put together.
So. *hugs* Bye for now. Keep being awesome, okay? I'll miss you, but I will come back someday!
I feel terrible leaving That Good Night hanging where it is, with Spike and Xander in such a difficult place. That story has an ending in my head, but it's in a very stuck place right now and I just don't have the energy to push through the stuck-ness.
I love writing, I love it so much. But it takes a kind of energy and focus that I just don't have these days (not to mention free time). It occurs to me that I don't see a lot of active writers in fandom with small children. Some, but not a lot. And there may be a reason for that!
And I don't think I can manage participation of the non-writing variety, either, not for now. Internet time is too hard to come by. And even a post like this is hard to write. My brain is too tired. The words are just too hard to put together.
So. *hugs* Bye for now. Keep being awesome, okay? I'll miss you, but I will come back someday!