Emotional Dump
Well, today was The Big Game at the Cafe' and, I'm pleased to say that I got to go home early. Yay! Now, I'm off until Saturday! Vacation time is sah-wee-tah, even if Justin thinks that it's complete BS.
Erin has agreed to let me borrow her Jak game so that I can get catch up on the series while Rachel races to finish Jak 2 before I can get my mits on it. Speaking of Rachel, I've been feeling a bit ignored by her lately. Ever since we've gotten CoH/V, she's been playing it in her free time. She wants me to sit there and watch her play, but I can do that for just soooo long before I grow bored. Then, during load screens, she floods me with attention until the game clicks back on. I know that Rachel is a lot more action-y than I am in the fact that she needs to be constantly doing something or she grows aggitated, but I can't always be constantly amusing. That being said, I still want her around with me when I'm just shooting the breeze. Also, her temper is getting a bit worse lately. I have to watch out for that.
*gnaws on tail and thinks to himself** I gotta finish my taxes.... gotta do that soon... During my vacation.
I also have been thinking of Sabi a lot lately. I haven't heard from her in a while. I don't think she wants me to hear from her otherwise I would have by now. The last thing I heard was the rummor of her being in trouble and Rachel and I both panicing. But, I haven't heard anything since then, so I'm guessing she's cool. Dunno...just want to find out what she's been up to and how things are holding out for her. I remember that she was the only one that I could really rough house around with... she could take it and dish it out all the same. Tried rough housing with Erin....didn't work. left her with a bruse. Tried it with Rachel and its' fun, but I'm afraid that I'm going to hurt her.
....oh..and...loverly....Mike and Tabby are 'romancing' across the hall. yay!
Okami coming out soon....I'll have to nab it when I have the money.
I've also been getting this funny feeling emotionally. A lot of things have changed in the past few months and I'm a creature of habbit. The willies from this new shift in life is starting to catch up to me now. I find that I'm thinking back more to the older days than I used to. Mostly highschool. I want to go back there soon and tell Mr. Carden that I'm going to become a teacher. Also thinking about home a lot, also. I love all this frigg'n privacy I have now, but I miss the family. Visit them often, but it's not really the same. Miss Keion and Selwyn a lot to. I know Keion misses me. ...Selwyn most likely only misses my laptop.
Thinking about my drawings and stories to. I've had to scrap a good number of my writtings because they just drowned beneath the lack of direction. Been making an attempt ot get back into drawing, but it's an eternal attempt. I grow frustrated with them too easily. A story I can work on and drop and pick up over time, but these pictures haunt me. Feel a bit jealous at Erin because of her drawings. I know that she has just as much frustration with her art as I do, I've seen her give up on pictures, but still feel a bit of that seething 'grrr'-ness. Not like I hate her because of her art, and, if anything, I'm really am proud of her. She's been drawing a while, years and years and years, worked to become the artist that she is. i guess it's mostly just anger at myself. I -want- to be more professional with my work, but don't put the effort into reaching that goal. Got only myself to blame. I'm also really proud of Rachel. Her art is amazing, even if she doesn't think so. I've even kept a few of the pictures that she's thrown out because they are that good.
HORRAY! This has officially turned Emo... **changes the title of the post to fit the mood more**
That's more like it. on the upside, Rachel's convinced me to attempt making a comic strip with my gremlins. We'll see if I actually follow through with it. ...just remembered that I also need to draw a picture of the Mi gremlin... and Fae....but I don't have any idea on her personality yet, so she'll have to wait.
Been thinking about getting a new gecko, but I'm afraid to do so. After Minerva, I feel like another gecko would be doomed if given to me.
Right..hunger is attack now. Must stop typing.
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"Justin, if this Cafe' goes below fifty suckiness per hour, it will explode!"
"WHAAAAAAAT?"
Erin has agreed to let me borrow her Jak game so that I can get catch up on the series while Rachel races to finish Jak 2 before I can get my mits on it. Speaking of Rachel, I've been feeling a bit ignored by her lately. Ever since we've gotten CoH/V, she's been playing it in her free time. She wants me to sit there and watch her play, but I can do that for just soooo long before I grow bored. Then, during load screens, she floods me with attention until the game clicks back on. I know that Rachel is a lot more action-y than I am in the fact that she needs to be constantly doing something or she grows aggitated, but I can't always be constantly amusing. That being said, I still want her around with me when I'm just shooting the breeze. Also, her temper is getting a bit worse lately. I have to watch out for that.
*gnaws on tail and thinks to himself** I gotta finish my taxes.... gotta do that soon... During my vacation.
I also have been thinking of Sabi a lot lately. I haven't heard from her in a while. I don't think she wants me to hear from her otherwise I would have by now. The last thing I heard was the rummor of her being in trouble and Rachel and I both panicing. But, I haven't heard anything since then, so I'm guessing she's cool. Dunno...just want to find out what she's been up to and how things are holding out for her. I remember that she was the only one that I could really rough house around with... she could take it and dish it out all the same. Tried rough housing with Erin....didn't work. left her with a bruse. Tried it with Rachel and its' fun, but I'm afraid that I'm going to hurt her.
....oh..and...loverly....Mike and Tabby are 'romancing' across the hall. yay!
Okami coming out soon....I'll have to nab it when I have the money.
I've also been getting this funny feeling emotionally. A lot of things have changed in the past few months and I'm a creature of habbit. The willies from this new shift in life is starting to catch up to me now. I find that I'm thinking back more to the older days than I used to. Mostly highschool. I want to go back there soon and tell Mr. Carden that I'm going to become a teacher. Also thinking about home a lot, also. I love all this frigg'n privacy I have now, but I miss the family. Visit them often, but it's not really the same. Miss Keion and Selwyn a lot to. I know Keion misses me. ...Selwyn most likely only misses my laptop.
Thinking about my drawings and stories to. I've had to scrap a good number of my writtings because they just drowned beneath the lack of direction. Been making an attempt ot get back into drawing, but it's an eternal attempt. I grow frustrated with them too easily. A story I can work on and drop and pick up over time, but these pictures haunt me. Feel a bit jealous at Erin because of her drawings. I know that she has just as much frustration with her art as I do, I've seen her give up on pictures, but still feel a bit of that seething 'grrr'-ness. Not like I hate her because of her art, and, if anything, I'm really am proud of her. She's been drawing a while, years and years and years, worked to become the artist that she is. i guess it's mostly just anger at myself. I -want- to be more professional with my work, but don't put the effort into reaching that goal. Got only myself to blame. I'm also really proud of Rachel. Her art is amazing, even if she doesn't think so. I've even kept a few of the pictures that she's thrown out because they are that good.
HORRAY! This has officially turned Emo... **changes the title of the post to fit the mood more**
That's more like it. on the upside, Rachel's convinced me to attempt making a comic strip with my gremlins. We'll see if I actually follow through with it. ...just remembered that I also need to draw a picture of the Mi gremlin... and Fae....but I don't have any idea on her personality yet, so she'll have to wait.
Been thinking about getting a new gecko, but I'm afraid to do so. After Minerva, I feel like another gecko would be doomed if given to me.
Right..hunger is attack now. Must stop typing.
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"Justin, if this Cafe' goes below fifty suckiness per hour, it will explode!"
"WHAAAAAAAT?"