Riffraff! Street rat! Scoundrel! Take that!
for some reason ive got alladin songs stuck in my head. lol. but thats ok, i love that movie.
so actual journal type entry going down here.
Ok so heres whats been happening lately...
Mum and xtine left to go to chicago because xtine wanted to see jeffrey. why? i can barely keep up but thats ok. so it was just me dad and the boys. and i was grounded all weekend. because...
-Thursday night (or friday i dont remember) matt swung by after work to drop off teh new Used cd. thank goodness i really wanted it. i mentioned it breifly to mum before hand but i was sitting in the backyard for about an hour before he got there just listening to music and looking at teh stars and just... chillin. so when matt got here he just walked strait into the backyard and sat down adn started talking to me. i didnt mention we were out tehre to anyone, i didnt think it mattered. about 30 mins later my mum walked out and saw us. she didnt care much but she told my dad who tld us 5 more mins. so we got up and walked to teh front yard to his car to say bye. and see we have this thing. im told 5 min so we go outside and stay tehre until my dad says come in now. its how its always been. so we were out there and just goofing off and talking and laughing and whatever and ya i noticed it had been like an hour, but dad never called. ok so i was knowingly getting into trouble. i admit it. and matt and i even talked about it. but it was worth it for me.
dad ended up going outside and yelling at matt and then grounding me. i was fine with getting in trouble, i deserved it. but when i found out he yelled at matt i was more than angry. it wasnt matts fault. sometimes parents need to think before they act too. everntually we got over this little bump, however matt is still afraid to come over for now. and i promise i will never do that to my kids.
ok well now that im done with that delightful story, not much else is going on lately. turns out matt will only be leaving for a week but its definatly good for me. maybe when he comes back he wont even care about me anymore. i dont know if that would be good or bad but at least it would be something. uncertanty=insanity. besides him, ive been asked out by 3 different guys. and said no to all of them. i just dont wanna date anyone if i dont really really like them. i know im weird. but in the meantime i jsut wanna have fun. with or without guys. im planning parties and stuff anything to keep my busy and having a good time. in my opinion, after this week i will be a heck of a lot happier. because i know no one else can make you happy until ur happy. well once i dye my hair and stuff. ill be happier. it just makes me feel more like me when i have color in my hair. because its a little reminder of the fun goofy "punk" stuff? idk it just makes me happy so buck off. lol. umm... love my friends they are amazing. need to see them more. need to try to make everyone happy more. its a good way to be. love my brits. man i miss alf so much lately. hes a good kid. in a small way im starting to look forward to our big trip. ill leave and by the time i come back everything will be different. could be horrible for me but theres a small cahnce it could be better, and ive always been a risk taker.
cant wait for jane to come up. honestly itll be like my little escape. hoping i can find things to do in little old collierville while sheshere but at least i know jacob wants to see her so we'll end up chillin at kiyas at least once.
planning is redonkulous if u ask me. but hey, im tryig here. lol.
so actual journal type entry going down here.
Ok so heres whats been happening lately...
Mum and xtine left to go to chicago because xtine wanted to see jeffrey. why? i can barely keep up but thats ok. so it was just me dad and the boys. and i was grounded all weekend. because...
-Thursday night (or friday i dont remember) matt swung by after work to drop off teh new Used cd. thank goodness i really wanted it. i mentioned it breifly to mum before hand but i was sitting in the backyard for about an hour before he got there just listening to music and looking at teh stars and just... chillin. so when matt got here he just walked strait into the backyard and sat down adn started talking to me. i didnt mention we were out tehre to anyone, i didnt think it mattered. about 30 mins later my mum walked out and saw us. she didnt care much but she told my dad who tld us 5 more mins. so we got up and walked to teh front yard to his car to say bye. and see we have this thing. im told 5 min so we go outside and stay tehre until my dad says come in now. its how its always been. so we were out there and just goofing off and talking and laughing and whatever and ya i noticed it had been like an hour, but dad never called. ok so i was knowingly getting into trouble. i admit it. and matt and i even talked about it. but it was worth it for me.
dad ended up going outside and yelling at matt and then grounding me. i was fine with getting in trouble, i deserved it. but when i found out he yelled at matt i was more than angry. it wasnt matts fault. sometimes parents need to think before they act too. everntually we got over this little bump, however matt is still afraid to come over for now. and i promise i will never do that to my kids.
ok well now that im done with that delightful story, not much else is going on lately. turns out matt will only be leaving for a week but its definatly good for me. maybe when he comes back he wont even care about me anymore. i dont know if that would be good or bad but at least it would be something. uncertanty=insanity. besides him, ive been asked out by 3 different guys. and said no to all of them. i just dont wanna date anyone if i dont really really like them. i know im weird. but in the meantime i jsut wanna have fun. with or without guys. im planning parties and stuff anything to keep my busy and having a good time. in my opinion, after this week i will be a heck of a lot happier. because i know no one else can make you happy until ur happy. well once i dye my hair and stuff. ill be happier. it just makes me feel more like me when i have color in my hair. because its a little reminder of the fun goofy "punk" stuff? idk it just makes me happy so buck off. lol. umm... love my friends they are amazing. need to see them more. need to try to make everyone happy more. its a good way to be. love my brits. man i miss alf so much lately. hes a good kid. in a small way im starting to look forward to our big trip. ill leave and by the time i come back everything will be different. could be horrible for me but theres a small cahnce it could be better, and ive always been a risk taker.
cant wait for jane to come up. honestly itll be like my little escape. hoping i can find things to do in little old collierville while sheshere but at least i know jacob wants to see her so we'll end up chillin at kiyas at least once.
planning is redonkulous if u ask me. but hey, im tryig here. lol.