Feb 29, 2004 02:25
DarkRuination: i think i told you about the girl thats moving from chicago to here this weekend
DarkRuination: anyways, shes awesome and like so perfect and totally everything ive ever wanted.
DarkRuination: butttttt
Such A Dork007: ?
DarkRuination: she doesnt have sex. shes celebate(however you fuckin spell it) so tahts not gonna happen with me. cuz i cant be with somone who wont "be" with me in every way
DarkRuination: well anyways
Such A Dork007: she might be eventually
DarkRuination: well fuck all that
DarkRuination: cuz friday night i guess she got with somone up in illinois and now shes all happy about it and this person talkin about fuckin moving down here and shit to be with her and FUCK!
DarkRuination: god, i hate this
DarkRuination: its not fair. i swear im always 2nd best to every girl ive ever actually cared about. and thats so fuckin shitty. Always being 2nd best is the worst thing there is. I'd rather be last pick anyday than 2nd.
DarkRuination: its horrible
Such A Dork007: oh man
Such A Dork007: what a bitch
DarkRuination: its fuckin rediculous. im sitting here crying like a fuckin bitch about this shit, and i shouldnt be. i told myself id never get this upset about a girl again
Such A Dork007: awww
Such A Dork007: sweetie
DarkRuination: its just so not fair. shit like this always happens to me. this i why i hate the world so much. i never get a fuckin break
This is my life. This is why I'm so bitter toward people. This is why I hate humanity so much. I'll never be given a fucking chance at what I want. I'll never be "the one" to that somone that really matters. I hate the world and I hate myself. God damnit, I'm so sick of it all.