Resolutions

[shadows_babe]

I've been very bad! It's been a long time since I've posted here.
But life hasn't been worth writing about lately.
No, that's a lie.
Life scared the hell out of me last year. Some of the moments I don't want to think about right now. But this year will be better.

Isn't that the lie we tell ourselves each year? I'll be thinner, I'll be smarter about life, I'll make a difference.
But you know what, I'm going to make this year different.
My work is a job. It's not my life.

I used to have hobbies. And I used to love to draw and a million other things I haven't done in forever because I didn't think it was important enough to schedule into my day. I may never be a writer but I could start posting all those ideas I've been thinking about into someone else's idea factory. Got to get used to writing anything. Boring or inane, I just have to get
into the habit of writing. It's just for me after all.

I've got to find the me that I used to be.
It's been a long time since I've seen her looking back at me in the mirror, but I seem to recall that she wasn't so bad.