so basically this is where i turn into a bisexual carrie bradshaw..... wow, my life is sad. haha.
i really wish i could write again. it's kind of a joke now, when i try to call myself a writer. i mean... writers write. i just wish i could. lol. the passion is still there, but the words disappeared like a year ago. i used to have so many! i couldn't stop! i was always working on a new project or reading up on different poets/novelists and learning things from them, but now.. i'm all dried up! i wouldn't eve know what to write about now. boys? fuck that. girls? ugh, i don't even want to talk about it.
actually, i do. i am the worst dyke in the world. lol. i want a girlfriend so badly and yet it seems as though the world is conspiring against me... the only girls that flirt with me are my straight friends, who just wish they were gay. the only gay girls i can stand are... hmm, let's just say they have a bit too much baggage for me to carry. maybe i'm just too picky. but then, maybe that's a good thing. i really don't need to be in a relationship right now. i wouldn't be able to do it justice. i'm too used to being independent at this point - and liking it - that she would have to be really low maintenance in order to handle it. or maybe i'm just too straight right now and i'm making up excuses...
no. cause i don't like guys either! they're too easy. let's face it. they can get the job done, but what's the fun in that if there's no thrill in the chase anymore? like, i always know i'm going to win, so why bother playing? *yawn*
sooo, if anybody knows of any gay girls... not too crazy, not too plain, good-looking, not too fat/skinny, extroverted but not an attention whore, flexible, smart but not an asshole... umm, basically exactly like me? ugh, i am doomed.
actually, i do. i am the worst dyke in the world. lol. i want a girlfriend so badly and yet it seems as though the world is conspiring against me... the only girls that flirt with me are my straight friends, who just wish they were gay. the only gay girls i can stand are... hmm, let's just say they have a bit too much baggage for me to carry. maybe i'm just too picky. but then, maybe that's a good thing. i really don't need to be in a relationship right now. i wouldn't be able to do it justice. i'm too used to being independent at this point - and liking it - that she would have to be really low maintenance in order to handle it. or maybe i'm just too straight right now and i'm making up excuses...
no. cause i don't like guys either! they're too easy. let's face it. they can get the job done, but what's the fun in that if there's no thrill in the chase anymore? like, i always know i'm going to win, so why bother playing? *yawn*
sooo, if anybody knows of any gay girls... not too crazy, not too plain, good-looking, not too fat/skinny, extroverted but not an attention whore, flexible, smart but not an asshole... umm, basically exactly like me? ugh, i am doomed.