Re: Wish I Could Help MoregtpoohJuly 17 2008, 16:42:57 UTC
LOL It last 18 hours this time. Then I felt well enough to want to do something. Then I remembered that I don't have anyone to do anything with and the last person I was with didn't consider me worth spending one night with me over a three month period. Then I remember that if I weren't such a fat, ugly. worthless stupid woman I'd be with the person I love and I'd have plenty of spare cash to send you.
Bah. I worked on the Mental Health Matters show last and it kind of depresses me because 1) it's at the studio where M and I have worked together for six years until he quit a couple of months ago (which is probably good because it depresses me for weeks to see him) and 2) because every show reminds me that the only way I can ever get help is to fail totally and need state help and I am unable to allow myself to totally fail. Otherwise I'll just be one of the forgotten uninsured people struggling to hold it together. Plus, I'm starting to lose my teeth because I can't afford treatment and I picked up gum disease from M.
And . . are you feeling any better about your life yet? I figure, if I can't be a good example I can at least be a measure of how well other people are doing. :D We are going to recycle some more stuff this weekend, I'll see if I can free up a few to send your way.
Bah. I worked on the Mental Health Matters show last and it kind of depresses me because 1) it's at the studio where M and I have worked together for six years until he quit a couple of months ago (which is probably good because it depresses me for weeks to see him) and 2) because every show reminds me that the only way I can ever get help is to fail totally and need state help and I am unable to allow myself to totally fail. Otherwise I'll just be one of the forgotten uninsured people struggling to hold it together. Plus, I'm starting to lose my teeth because I can't afford treatment and I picked up gum disease from M.
And . . are you feeling any better about your life yet? I figure, if I can't be a good example I can at least be a measure of how well other people are doing. :D We are going to recycle some more stuff this weekend, I'll see if I can free up a few to send your way.
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