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My last update is about 5 months ago. Its due for a real one.
This isn't it. Sorry. I would LJ cut this but I am still to mad and hope everyone will see
I need to get this out of me before it REALLY starts to bother me. I will be telling all about peoples family problems that everyone keeps behind closed doors in closets and all that jazz. Normaly I totaly respect peoples privacy but I have had ENOUGH of your SHIT. So, its either talk about it here or possibly stuff that would be much worse... which would you pick?
I would like to start out with a nice big WHAT THE FUCK!!!
Now a little hats off to Grey's... SERIOUSLY! (Note: this is a statement not a question)
OK I believe this is enought to start so here is goes.
How DARE you call and fucking do that to us you immature little fuck! You have told everyone you know again and again how "blood is thicker than water" and how family should always have each others back.
Then you have the nerve to insult your own family. and that is the mildest G rated shit i could think of.
This blood is thicker than water idea, it only applies when YOU THINK people are trying to hurt you. News flash: ITS A TWO (2) WAY STREET!!! You cant be all like oh she is hurting me by saying just someones NAME, then go off on her and call her a bitch and whatever else you called her. Your lucky I am not near you because you may beat my ass but I would still get a few good punches in, and I would try, do you know why? Because you insulted my family and I stick up for all my family. I would take a bullet for each and everyone of them: My mother, my father, my sister, and my soon to be wife. I wouldnt hesitate to take one for any of them, so why are you the one pulling the trigger of the gun aimed at your sisters heart?
You sit there and call your sister stuff you shouldnt say to anyone. You have NO right. No i dont have a restraining order against me, I dont know what its like, I am not a fucking dumbass who wont leave well enough alone. Sure you backed off eventually but you didnt soon enough. Now you know better so get the fuck over with it.
You now live knowing that you have officialy insulted your soon-to-be brother-in-law by not coming to his wedding to your sister after YOU GAVE YOUR WORD. Well its good to know your word is worth less than shit you scum-bag. I know you have pain, you fell in love with a girl and she doesnt want you, i understand that, getting a restraining order from her has to hurt a-fucking-lot. But you getting fucking upset by everylittle thing that reminds you of her.
DUDE, i know you grew up with the idea of not seeing doctors unless you are half-dead already but take my advice stop getting all inked up and go see a fucking therapist you need to deal with this shit and move on.
Oh and btw, I doubt she is the one responsible, Her parents probably forced her because she has had a few too many fucked up relationships and THEY were scared. She could have stoped it, she didnt, they own the house she lives in and the money she uses to pay for college. If she would have known she might not have let them force her into it, but she still might have, I look at everything as many ways as possible, I CAN see where she is coming from. Is it right? NO. but from her eyes it might have been the safest thing for her to do. Still just get a shrink. Thanks.
We tried doing you a fucking favor, so IN CASE you could get in trouble by accidently seeing her, you could avoid it. And because we tried helping you out you slap us both across the face. I know I said no more tattoos but take your money from the tux and get a tattoo saying IDOIT in Kanji accross your forhead. Because I forgive, but I remember. You are thinking WAY too short term. You sister will be your sister FOREVER. This doesnt change in death mind you. She will still be your sister. And for some reason you come for help and I am still around there WILL be hell to pay. I dont konw if you will ever know of it but I am NOT letting this go. This is a once in a lifetime moment for me and vicki. Our wedding day, celebrated by friends and fami... oh yeah, celibrated by friends and MOST family. So help me, If ANYONE asks about your or why you arent there I will tell them EVERYTHING about why you are not MAN ENOUGH to deal with a small price to pay for your own FAMILY!
I will be at my sisters wedding if I have to drag myself over red hot razor sharp shards of glass for miles! Only death would prevent me from attending and nothing less!
So go fix whatever broke inside you when she left. Now I am not unreasonable. Perhapse you cant fix it. And maybe that is a good thing, you may need this later in life. So I give you yet another option. Learn to deal with this, learn from the situation itself. But under no circumstances take out your problems with a girl on your family you so much have said you are supposed to protect. We chose you over here hands down, we believed her over you once because her story was more believeable than yours. Get over it. You proved yourself right, congradulations. And either way we would have sided with you because you are FAMILY! So its time for you to let Amanda go and start asking for forgivness from your family that you have put through hell because you dont know how do deal with this. Its not our fault, its not our responsibility to fix it. However IF you asked for help maybe someone could. But you just want to hide from or it run from it or do whatever it takes not do deal with it.
I doubt you will read this but...
MATT please get help and stop hurting your own family.
This isn't it. Sorry. I would LJ cut this but I am still to mad and hope everyone will see
I need to get this out of me before it REALLY starts to bother me. I will be telling all about peoples family problems that everyone keeps behind closed doors in closets and all that jazz. Normaly I totaly respect peoples privacy but I have had ENOUGH of your SHIT. So, its either talk about it here or possibly stuff that would be much worse... which would you pick?
I would like to start out with a nice big WHAT THE FUCK!!!
Now a little hats off to Grey's... SERIOUSLY! (Note: this is a statement not a question)
OK I believe this is enought to start so here is goes.
How DARE you call and fucking do that to us you immature little fuck! You have told everyone you know again and again how "blood is thicker than water" and how family should always have each others back.
Then you have the nerve to insult your own family. and that is the mildest G rated shit i could think of.
This blood is thicker than water idea, it only applies when YOU THINK people are trying to hurt you. News flash: ITS A TWO (2) WAY STREET!!! You cant be all like oh she is hurting me by saying just someones NAME, then go off on her and call her a bitch and whatever else you called her. Your lucky I am not near you because you may beat my ass but I would still get a few good punches in, and I would try, do you know why? Because you insulted my family and I stick up for all my family. I would take a bullet for each and everyone of them: My mother, my father, my sister, and my soon to be wife. I wouldnt hesitate to take one for any of them, so why are you the one pulling the trigger of the gun aimed at your sisters heart?
You sit there and call your sister stuff you shouldnt say to anyone. You have NO right. No i dont have a restraining order against me, I dont know what its like, I am not a fucking dumbass who wont leave well enough alone. Sure you backed off eventually but you didnt soon enough. Now you know better so get the fuck over with it.
You now live knowing that you have officialy insulted your soon-to-be brother-in-law by not coming to his wedding to your sister after YOU GAVE YOUR WORD. Well its good to know your word is worth less than shit you scum-bag. I know you have pain, you fell in love with a girl and she doesnt want you, i understand that, getting a restraining order from her has to hurt a-fucking-lot. But you getting fucking upset by everylittle thing that reminds you of her.
DUDE, i know you grew up with the idea of not seeing doctors unless you are half-dead already but take my advice stop getting all inked up and go see a fucking therapist you need to deal with this shit and move on.
Oh and btw, I doubt she is the one responsible, Her parents probably forced her because she has had a few too many fucked up relationships and THEY were scared. She could have stoped it, she didnt, they own the house she lives in and the money she uses to pay for college. If she would have known she might not have let them force her into it, but she still might have, I look at everything as many ways as possible, I CAN see where she is coming from. Is it right? NO. but from her eyes it might have been the safest thing for her to do. Still just get a shrink. Thanks.
We tried doing you a fucking favor, so IN CASE you could get in trouble by accidently seeing her, you could avoid it. And because we tried helping you out you slap us both across the face. I know I said no more tattoos but take your money from the tux and get a tattoo saying IDOIT in Kanji accross your forhead. Because I forgive, but I remember. You are thinking WAY too short term. You sister will be your sister FOREVER. This doesnt change in death mind you. She will still be your sister. And for some reason you come for help and I am still around there WILL be hell to pay. I dont konw if you will ever know of it but I am NOT letting this go. This is a once in a lifetime moment for me and vicki. Our wedding day, celebrated by friends and fami... oh yeah, celibrated by friends and MOST family. So help me, If ANYONE asks about your or why you arent there I will tell them EVERYTHING about why you are not MAN ENOUGH to deal with a small price to pay for your own FAMILY!
I will be at my sisters wedding if I have to drag myself over red hot razor sharp shards of glass for miles! Only death would prevent me from attending and nothing less!
So go fix whatever broke inside you when she left. Now I am not unreasonable. Perhapse you cant fix it. And maybe that is a good thing, you may need this later in life. So I give you yet another option. Learn to deal with this, learn from the situation itself. But under no circumstances take out your problems with a girl on your family you so much have said you are supposed to protect. We chose you over here hands down, we believed her over you once because her story was more believeable than yours. Get over it. You proved yourself right, congradulations. And either way we would have sided with you because you are FAMILY! So its time for you to let Amanda go and start asking for forgivness from your family that you have put through hell because you dont know how do deal with this. Its not our fault, its not our responsibility to fix it. However IF you asked for help maybe someone could. But you just want to hide from or it run from it or do whatever it takes not do deal with it.
I doubt you will read this but...
MATT please get help and stop hurting your own family.