and what I MEANT TO SAY was...
This is the second day now. I feel spiritual. I have found something i did not know I was missing. Now before you go and think this is a god post think again. its ok to think a thought that contradicts another. But this is about me and how I am.
I have become rather quickly more spiritual. Now this is NOT changing any thoughts or ideas about what I believe as far as religon, sexual preferance or orentation and all of that kind of stuff. Now i may have new thoughts or ideas but i'm decidedly not changing them. You can think one thing and then another. Like trying to stop being racist, I know i still am (to a lesser degree) and I have been trying to stop all together, but when I see someone or certain races (not naming which) i instantly think something about them and have to correct myself by thinking 'now why would i think that, i havent even given them a chance and I need to' Doing so doesnt replace the original thought but the second one does correct it. I wish i wasnt racist, its just mean, I know how i got that way and am upset that I am but I will try to become better at not doing it. Now that we know I am a bit racist at first but can correct it I can move on to the rest of this post, I dont know why I admitted that but it felt wrong just staying in my head. I ask for forgiveness if it is needed or warented. I am sorry. After now typing this I no longer consider myself racist. Though still having the ocasional though of it I believe that because I stop myself and rethink these thoughts. Though i think the thoughts i dont 'act' on them and give them a chance to show me them not thier stereo type or whatnot.
A few days ago I was overwhelmed by a sudden bout of depression. It came on by worries about money. Our money situation is actually alright but still I got very upset about it. And for the second day now I am no longer worrying about it. Yes the problem is still there but I feel like it will turn out ok. I dont know that for sure but I just feel it. And I think that is because of my new found spirituality.
I would like to give thanks to Vicki and Chris for helping me thought that depression, expecially Vicki. And also to Michelle and Amanda for asking to me my friend even though you already were/are. This has not gone unnoticed and was greatly apreciated. And again to Vicki who has always been there for me, you are my rock and I am glad you support me in this (Support me in what I am about to tell everyone)
I am now an Ordained Minister. With all the legal standings and what not. I can preform confessions, baptisms and marriages. This has helped me find my 'Faith in Life'. Which is what I am calling it for now. Not faith in a higher power, not that I am saying a higher power does not exist. So that is my news for quite some time.
I have become rather quickly more spiritual. Now this is NOT changing any thoughts or ideas about what I believe as far as religon, sexual preferance or orentation and all of that kind of stuff. Now i may have new thoughts or ideas but i'm decidedly not changing them. You can think one thing and then another. Like trying to stop being racist, I know i still am (to a lesser degree) and I have been trying to stop all together, but when I see someone or certain races (not naming which) i instantly think something about them and have to correct myself by thinking 'now why would i think that, i havent even given them a chance and I need to' Doing so doesnt replace the original thought but the second one does correct it. I wish i wasnt racist, its just mean, I know how i got that way and am upset that I am but I will try to become better at not doing it. Now that we know I am a bit racist at first but can correct it I can move on to the rest of this post, I dont know why I admitted that but it felt wrong just staying in my head. I ask for forgiveness if it is needed or warented. I am sorry. After now typing this I no longer consider myself racist. Though still having the ocasional though of it I believe that because I stop myself and rethink these thoughts. Though i think the thoughts i dont 'act' on them and give them a chance to show me them not thier stereo type or whatnot.
A few days ago I was overwhelmed by a sudden bout of depression. It came on by worries about money. Our money situation is actually alright but still I got very upset about it. And for the second day now I am no longer worrying about it. Yes the problem is still there but I feel like it will turn out ok. I dont know that for sure but I just feel it. And I think that is because of my new found spirituality.
I would like to give thanks to Vicki and Chris for helping me thought that depression, expecially Vicki. And also to Michelle and Amanda for asking to me my friend even though you already were/are. This has not gone unnoticed and was greatly apreciated. And again to Vicki who has always been there for me, you are my rock and I am glad you support me in this (Support me in what I am about to tell everyone)
I am now an Ordained Minister. With all the legal standings and what not. I can preform confessions, baptisms and marriages. This has helped me find my 'Faith in Life'. Which is what I am calling it for now. Not faith in a higher power, not that I am saying a higher power does not exist. So that is my news for quite some time.