this sucks pickles
So..yeah I was sick last weekend with a flu type thingy...i was pretty much done with that by tues or so, after that I was just feeling tired, and was coughing. Started to feel shitty wed night, and worse on thurs. Went to the dr's and almost ended up in the hospital to do blood work and find out what's wrong with me..they thought I had mono or some shit. Turns out I just had some flu thing and then before my body had recovered I developed strep throat and that hit me hard cause I was still recovering from other sicknesses. So..I basically just got everything from a head cold to strep throat to stomach aches, fevers, and body aches all in the same week..I better not get sick after this for a long time. ugh. Couldn't go to school today or work...antibiotics should start working & I'll be back on my feet tomorrow night at work.
Other than that...some shit is bugging me, I've been stressed out probably over stupid shit. I think my biggest thing is I need a vacation..I need some time away from this place, but that's not gonna happen for a few months, maybe I'll make some day trips places, but that's about it till after this semester is over.
Oh well..I'll get through it, I always do, I just have to get recovered from everything so I can go to work and class. I need a long car ride and some angry music to clear my mind. I miss some people I haven't seen much lately, no random adventures in a long time. Soon..we will have to sometime soon.
So at mcds Judy finally found out about Matt and I dating, and she actually doesn't have a problem with it, she seems like she might feel left out of the situation, we'll probably end up talking about it sometime soon. I'm glad that she doesn't have a problem with it and that she knows, cause that takes some problems away from work, and gets a couple people to shut up. I wish I was feeling better today so I could see Matt for awhile, I really need a hug and some cuddling time, a conversation that lasts till 3 in the morning until I feel better. I think when I'm stuck in this house for too long it's driving me nuts. My dad is getting married, this is frustrating for many reasons...I want him to be happy, but sometimes I feel like it really isn't what he wants, at least that's what I gathered from our convos lately. It will make him happy, but then again he didn't plan on getting married again for a long time, if he remarried. All this shit with college, getting enough credits, taking enough classes, not screwing myself over in the future is about killing me, it seems to be more work than it's worth.
Staind-Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause i can't take anymore
of this, I want to come apart.
or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Other than that...some shit is bugging me, I've been stressed out probably over stupid shit. I think my biggest thing is I need a vacation..I need some time away from this place, but that's not gonna happen for a few months, maybe I'll make some day trips places, but that's about it till after this semester is over.
Oh well..I'll get through it, I always do, I just have to get recovered from everything so I can go to work and class. I need a long car ride and some angry music to clear my mind. I miss some people I haven't seen much lately, no random adventures in a long time. Soon..we will have to sometime soon.
So at mcds Judy finally found out about Matt and I dating, and she actually doesn't have a problem with it, she seems like she might feel left out of the situation, we'll probably end up talking about it sometime soon. I'm glad that she doesn't have a problem with it and that she knows, cause that takes some problems away from work, and gets a couple people to shut up. I wish I was feeling better today so I could see Matt for awhile, I really need a hug and some cuddling time, a conversation that lasts till 3 in the morning until I feel better. I think when I'm stuck in this house for too long it's driving me nuts. My dad is getting married, this is frustrating for many reasons...I want him to be happy, but sometimes I feel like it really isn't what he wants, at least that's what I gathered from our convos lately. It will make him happy, but then again he didn't plan on getting married again for a long time, if he remarried. All this shit with college, getting enough credits, taking enough classes, not screwing myself over in the future is about killing me, it seems to be more work than it's worth.
Staind-Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause i can't take anymore
of this, I want to come apart.
or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said