Q & A
There are times I close my eyes and I imagine the life I saw for myself as a child. Grown, married, children running around calling out, "Mom...where are my shoes?" and "Mom...I don't know where I put my car keys!" And I find myself laughing about it because back then it was just a dream a flicker of future hope and now it's like a looming obligation.
I catch myself thinking about where I'll be ten years from now thirty going on thrity-one with what surrounding me? Hopefully a fulfilling career in either medicine or writing...still haven't decided. Hopefully my friends and I will have remained close to one another at least in contact. I guess hopefully I'll be happy?
I can remember imagining holiday dinners, the way they would be when I'm thirty going on thirty-one and seeing myself, my husband, our kids, sarah, her husband, their kids, my parents. But, as I find myself drifting in and out of silly girly daydreams I see the same moment sarah, her husband, their kids, my parents, and me. No husband, no kids...maybe it's cause I'm cynical. Or disheartened through personal trials and tribulations I have come to the dismal realization that I could potnetially become a broodin, angry, slightly insane spinster. Bridget Jones anyone??? But hey! She ended up happy with Mr. Darcy and all...oh joy, oh rapture!
Blah...I'm tired and bored and avoiding any work that I potentially have to do because well frankly I don't care at the present moment! Don't care at all...
Grey's is on tonight, this makes me exceedingly happy which could be a good thing or a seriously pathetic thing...heh...good thing everyone else is just as excited as I am ;-) we must find out what happens to Meredith! And what is Mc. Dreamy gonna do???? OMG! Way overly happy..haha
Ok...blah I'm ready for a chill relationship with someone...you know you care for me I care for you...that deal, no big thing just nice and good and chill.
Am I asking for too much?
whatev...peace
I catch myself thinking about where I'll be ten years from now thirty going on thrity-one with what surrounding me? Hopefully a fulfilling career in either medicine or writing...still haven't decided. Hopefully my friends and I will have remained close to one another at least in contact. I guess hopefully I'll be happy?
I can remember imagining holiday dinners, the way they would be when I'm thirty going on thirty-one and seeing myself, my husband, our kids, sarah, her husband, their kids, my parents. But, as I find myself drifting in and out of silly girly daydreams I see the same moment sarah, her husband, their kids, my parents, and me. No husband, no kids...maybe it's cause I'm cynical. Or disheartened through personal trials and tribulations I have come to the dismal realization that I could potnetially become a broodin, angry, slightly insane spinster. Bridget Jones anyone??? But hey! She ended up happy with Mr. Darcy and all...oh joy, oh rapture!
Blah...I'm tired and bored and avoiding any work that I potentially have to do because well frankly I don't care at the present moment! Don't care at all...
Grey's is on tonight, this makes me exceedingly happy which could be a good thing or a seriously pathetic thing...heh...good thing everyone else is just as excited as I am ;-) we must find out what happens to Meredith! And what is Mc. Dreamy gonna do???? OMG! Way overly happy..haha
Ok...blah I'm ready for a chill relationship with someone...you know you care for me I care for you...that deal, no big thing just nice and good and chill.
Am I asking for too much?
whatev...peace