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[shadowofagirl]

Ok, so sometimes I wonder if any of it was honestly worth it. I mean in the end did I learn anything that I didn't already know? Did I grow up a little more? Did i kick ass a little harder? I find myself contemplating the past, the present, and the future pretty deeply in those hours before sleep encompasses my mind and dreams fill the spaces of bleak clouds. I can't help but think about what I've had, what I have, and what just seems to be missing...in an IM I just sent to the wife I said...rsingsunofafrika: so sometimes i think i should basically just give up on the ideals of happiness i have always believed in RMZM: i wouldnt do that. youd be miserable. RMZM: and even if no one is on the same page, committed to your beliefs/feelings, or in tune to you... youre still an artist and our ideals are all we have when it comes right down to it risingsunofafrika: this is why i love you wife...shes right you know. I have to in some fractio hold on to those values I managed to keep in tact throughout the years...I have to have faith in the faith!

Blah I have an hour and a hlaf till my radio shift...im kinda nervous/ i am getting sleepy :/

maybe my writer block will peace out soon so I can be an interesting person