College life D8
Yea...college life... D8 I'm failing at it horribly. I failed all of my classes last semester...and yes...I am NOT proud about it. D8 I'm very very upset with myself for it. I lost one of my scholarship things because of it and now I'm losing my I Know I Can grant because I missed the day to do the community service hours I needed to keep it.
There is no one to blame but me for all of this. I just don't think I'm cut out for it though. I am taking less interest in it anymore and I don't know why. Starting out right after high school was a really bad idea...I know...but I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm not in a major I really enjoy. D8 I know I say I enjoy it but I'm starting to doubt myself. Jeez with all of this who am I fooling? I'm just trying to fool myself into thinking that I'm enjoying it...that last term was just a fluke and it won't happen again.
Lawl..wrong.. D8.
I just can't seem to finish anything I start. I've realized that now. Looking back at other things I've done I have noticed that my percentage of things unfinished is higher than the things I have finished. The only things I seem to be able to finish are my drawings. D8 I get so excited about drawing or singing and its like the end of the world when I get art block or something. For college...its just...I'm not too excited about it anymore.
D8 Guh...I'm going to depress myself a lot before work so I had better stop now...
My day just hasn't started out well...I think that's what has caused this sudden horrible mood swing.
There is no one to blame but me for all of this. I just don't think I'm cut out for it though. I am taking less interest in it anymore and I don't know why. Starting out right after high school was a really bad idea...I know...but I'm beginning to think that maybe I'm not in a major I really enjoy. D8 I know I say I enjoy it but I'm starting to doubt myself. Jeez with all of this who am I fooling? I'm just trying to fool myself into thinking that I'm enjoying it...that last term was just a fluke and it won't happen again.
Lawl..wrong.. D8.
I just can't seem to finish anything I start. I've realized that now. Looking back at other things I've done I have noticed that my percentage of things unfinished is higher than the things I have finished. The only things I seem to be able to finish are my drawings. D8 I get so excited about drawing or singing and its like the end of the world when I get art block or something. For college...its just...I'm not too excited about it anymore.
D8 Guh...I'm going to depress myself a lot before work so I had better stop now...
My day just hasn't started out well...I think that's what has caused this sudden horrible mood swing.