Wheeeeeeeeeee!!!
Whheeewww. It's been the longest two weeks I've ever had to deal with. The whole shit with Lawanda, her mistake, her being in Iraq. Hit me like a fucking hurricane. My appetite is starting to some back. I can only eat so little at a time. But still it's there. I've dropped back down my smoking to what it was before she left. We talk on e-mails. Though she can only write every so often. With God's blessing we might even be able to salvage what we have. I'll fight for her, she is worth it to me. any other girl did that to me. Fuck'em. Her though, she saved me. She saved me from a place of darkness and hate. She went into the shadows and found the lost man who no one else cared to find. Someday I want her to truly understand what she means to me. Someday when the words can fall into proper order. Right now, I just want her to be safe, to come home safe and able to heal what from what she has done. I do thank my friends out here, my mom, and God. They help me when I need it the most. I know this isn't even close to being over and it might get worse before better or it might be better and go to awesome. Either way I'm facing it on my own two feet, but at least I now know I'm not alone. Can't wait for August 20th. Man I'm real geeked over that. I get to go down to Arkansas and see couple of my best friends. I love you guys. thanx. anyways..fuck it. Man this summer is going to drag...bleah..