Christmas Connections
Something I wrote recently got me thinking. I feel so lonely sometimes -- ok, lots of the time. It just seems like there is no one out there, no one who understands or thinks like me or CARES. Then something happens that makes me feel completely the opposite -- a phone call, a hug. Christmas is one of those things. Everybody makes a point of seeing people they don't usually see, giving gifts, hugging a little more. Maybe that's why it is so great. You don't feel so lonely, so alone in this depressing world.
It's the one time I kind of get the whole "body of Christ" concept. Like we all SEEM so separate but we are really like individual cells that form one whole thing or something. I'd be nice to be able to hold onto that feeling all the time though.
Of course, I feel so much less alone because of Mick. I can't believe our break-up made our relationship better, but it did. It's like, idk, we both really want to be here this time. It is really, really good. But my mother always says No one can save another person, and she's right because even he can't stop me from falling into the dark pit of ALONENESS.
Oh hell. I don't know where I'm going with all this. I started out saying something nice about Christmas. I don't want to end on a bad note, so I'll stop!
It's the one time I kind of get the whole "body of Christ" concept. Like we all SEEM so separate but we are really like individual cells that form one whole thing or something. I'd be nice to be able to hold onto that feeling all the time though.
Of course, I feel so much less alone because of Mick. I can't believe our break-up made our relationship better, but it did. It's like, idk, we both really want to be here this time. It is really, really good. But my mother always says No one can save another person, and she's right because even he can't stop me from falling into the dark pit of ALONENESS.
Oh hell. I don't know where I'm going with all this. I started out saying something nice about Christmas. I don't want to end on a bad note, so I'll stop!