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In need of downloading other crap to get this fucking powerpoint to work. Fucking PP 2007.
New plan: research and outline my essay tonight. Write in the morning after creating an elocker at last. Finish 4th period. Time leftover and 5th period is for doing art homework.
I REALLY hope we don't have to present this gove thing tomorrow. SERIOUSLY hope. I don't even know what order Chris wants this in, I don't even know if I'll have enough images, and I'd really rather not do this whole stupid presentation anyway. He says not enough images and too much text = snorefest. Uh, he doesn't realize that presentations PERIOD cause people to zone out? Oh well. I'm not saying anything; Chris is doing that. It's a nice change. IF I COULD GET THIS FUCKING POWERPOINT TO WORK.
All of that to say this. I'm just waiting for the breakdown. Maybe it'll be big. Maybe I'll just snap one day in the middle of a class and freak everyone out. Maybe I'll just stop doing everything, and my grades will plummet. Maybe I'll stop wanting to get out of bed altogether. I'm just...waiting for it. I think it's coming. I don't know. It's stupid to speculate on how I may no longer be mentally sound in the future. It's mostly my own damn fault anyway. It would suck massively and ruin so much. It probably won't happen, but sometimes the way I think and act, it's just like...blank and blah. It's this thing, y'know? Growing over the summer, and now I've just gotten worse, and I'm so unsure, and so behind, and I don't feel like I'm altogether ready or prepared for...anything. Who knows. I'm rambling.
New plan: research and outline my essay tonight. Write in the morning after creating an elocker at last. Finish 4th period. Time leftover and 5th period is for doing art homework.
I REALLY hope we don't have to present this gove thing tomorrow. SERIOUSLY hope. I don't even know what order Chris wants this in, I don't even know if I'll have enough images, and I'd really rather not do this whole stupid presentation anyway. He says not enough images and too much text = snorefest. Uh, he doesn't realize that presentations PERIOD cause people to zone out? Oh well. I'm not saying anything; Chris is doing that. It's a nice change. IF I COULD GET THIS FUCKING POWERPOINT TO WORK.
All of that to say this. I'm just waiting for the breakdown. Maybe it'll be big. Maybe I'll just snap one day in the middle of a class and freak everyone out. Maybe I'll just stop doing everything, and my grades will plummet. Maybe I'll stop wanting to get out of bed altogether. I'm just...waiting for it. I think it's coming. I don't know. It's stupid to speculate on how I may no longer be mentally sound in the future. It's mostly my own damn fault anyway. It would suck massively and ruin so much. It probably won't happen, but sometimes the way I think and act, it's just like...blank and blah. It's this thing, y'know? Growing over the summer, and now I've just gotten worse, and I'm so unsure, and so behind, and I don't feel like I'm altogether ready or prepared for...anything. Who knows. I'm rambling.