Broken
Welcome into my demise.
This is probably the worst piece of news I have posted on here in a long time... so bear with my pain guys.
Angel and I are on a break, until he can get his act together.
Angel has recently dropped his classes from school. He is going for his GED. I am ok with this, but there are many other factors he also needs to work on by himself. As getiing his driver's liscense, deciding if he truly wants to go into the army, and getting a job. I told him that I had enough of this dicking around and that he needed to start standing up to his family. After all being 19 and not having a job and a liscense is bad news. I even told him I would loan my tution money for him to sign up to a driving school. So if this is forever, then so be it. I'm just tired of all the excuses he was giving me.
It's finals week for my brother. He has been drinking a lot of energy drinks this week. Mom yelled at me for buying some of them. Understand this. I am the older sister, and he is my junior, so once junior comences his begging fits older sister will buy stuff so he stops. I even told him how Aaron died, and he still ignored me. So what should I have done?
Aaron died earlier this week, and I'm angry since he's gone. It seems like my friends are the targets to die lately. I love all of you guys, even if I get pissed for you at no reason. I would be at your funeral crying, if I could. At Aaron's I shed a few tears, but even with the pain we were all feeling, we just couldn't. It was hard for me to shed the ones that I did. I felt numb... but very sad.
Mom had a major episode of depression. Dad had humilitated her very badly. She got to the point of asking me, "Is Charter Oaks a good place to live? I want to be in the same school district for Jon to live in." And other stuff like, "I think we're getting a divorce, and I'm going to lose everything." Yeah this is what is so fun for me guys...*sigh*
Dad was harassing me about Angel. Right now I'm just flat out pissed at him. I have the right to be. I wouldn't speak to him last night, so maybe he's getting the hint. He tried asking about how babysitting was at Lisa's, which he "volunteered" me to do, without asking me first. So naturally I am very pissed at him. But his continous harassment is what I hate about him the most.
The next semester is starting soon. I will have an honors class and a math class now. So my free time will be taken up. I will have to concentrate on the math so hard... It makes me feel really stupid. I'm hoping I can see Patrick soon, but the way money is looking it might not be.
The other night at work I lost some money. I had to pay out of my bank. So I didn't put more into my tutition fund like I wanted to do.
Anyway, I feel like shit.
Numbness and Toodles,
Shadow
This is probably the worst piece of news I have posted on here in a long time... so bear with my pain guys.
Angel and I are on a break, until he can get his act together.
Angel has recently dropped his classes from school. He is going for his GED. I am ok with this, but there are many other factors he also needs to work on by himself. As getiing his driver's liscense, deciding if he truly wants to go into the army, and getting a job. I told him that I had enough of this dicking around and that he needed to start standing up to his family. After all being 19 and not having a job and a liscense is bad news. I even told him I would loan my tution money for him to sign up to a driving school. So if this is forever, then so be it. I'm just tired of all the excuses he was giving me.
It's finals week for my brother. He has been drinking a lot of energy drinks this week. Mom yelled at me for buying some of them. Understand this. I am the older sister, and he is my junior, so once junior comences his begging fits older sister will buy stuff so he stops. I even told him how Aaron died, and he still ignored me. So what should I have done?
Aaron died earlier this week, and I'm angry since he's gone. It seems like my friends are the targets to die lately. I love all of you guys, even if I get pissed for you at no reason. I would be at your funeral crying, if I could. At Aaron's I shed a few tears, but even with the pain we were all feeling, we just couldn't. It was hard for me to shed the ones that I did. I felt numb... but very sad.
Mom had a major episode of depression. Dad had humilitated her very badly. She got to the point of asking me, "Is Charter Oaks a good place to live? I want to be in the same school district for Jon to live in." And other stuff like, "I think we're getting a divorce, and I'm going to lose everything." Yeah this is what is so fun for me guys...*sigh*
Dad was harassing me about Angel. Right now I'm just flat out pissed at him. I have the right to be. I wouldn't speak to him last night, so maybe he's getting the hint. He tried asking about how babysitting was at Lisa's, which he "volunteered" me to do, without asking me first. So naturally I am very pissed at him. But his continous harassment is what I hate about him the most.
The next semester is starting soon. I will have an honors class and a math class now. So my free time will be taken up. I will have to concentrate on the math so hard... It makes me feel really stupid. I'm hoping I can see Patrick soon, but the way money is looking it might not be.
The other night at work I lost some money. I had to pay out of my bank. So I didn't put more into my tutition fund like I wanted to do.
Anyway, I feel like shit.
Numbness and Toodles,
Shadow