Belch.... the winter man attacks again.
HI HI! :
I'm going to let you in on a dirty little secret... and it involves the wintery season. My birthday is only a few days away.
And so it seems that one's birthday would be a joyous occasion... but to me its just your boring average day. I've had small family get togethers (absolute bordem...) and one small birthday party when I was 13. Other than that, I've never had a suprise party or anything else of that sort. I've never been to an actual party. This makes me feel like a loser. In high school, I was never invited to go to any rebellious parties. I wish I could have went to experience my rebellious stage then, but it was quite oppressed by absolutely strict parental police. Thus, I have come to the conclusion, that I have always been a loser. My own "friends" decided not to invite me for whatever reasons, and then even spoke about the party in front of me, and acted like I was invited to it. That has always hurt me, and I hate them for it. But my true friends hardly ever had a party, and when they did, I was always the last one invited or even to know that it exsisted.
I've come to the conclusion that I was never wanted by my friends. But I forgive them for the sins they have done to me. Every group of friends always has that one person you talk about when you're not there. You know what I mean, the annoying one who is just there, and no one knows why. *Sigh* I believe that I have been that person for quite sometime. Just no one wants to tell me to my face. Heh heh, sometimes I even think that Omni stays with me, just because he's afraid to tell me that he truly hates me. I just wish everyone would just say what they felt and thought, until then I will not have a happy birthday. Not until someone comes clean about the situation...
*Sigh* True love is shown by someone who beats you to a bloody pulp... yeah... ok then... My randomness is kicking in again. Someone better give me a hug. I could use a good snuggling too... Blech.
All the good stuff happens when your sick. This head cold is kicking my ass. I tell you what.
Cough drops and toodles,
Shadow
I'm going to let you in on a dirty little secret... and it involves the wintery season. My birthday is only a few days away.
And so it seems that one's birthday would be a joyous occasion... but to me its just your boring average day. I've had small family get togethers (absolute bordem...) and one small birthday party when I was 13. Other than that, I've never had a suprise party or anything else of that sort. I've never been to an actual party. This makes me feel like a loser. In high school, I was never invited to go to any rebellious parties. I wish I could have went to experience my rebellious stage then, but it was quite oppressed by absolutely strict parental police. Thus, I have come to the conclusion, that I have always been a loser. My own "friends" decided not to invite me for whatever reasons, and then even spoke about the party in front of me, and acted like I was invited to it. That has always hurt me, and I hate them for it. But my true friends hardly ever had a party, and when they did, I was always the last one invited or even to know that it exsisted.
I've come to the conclusion that I was never wanted by my friends. But I forgive them for the sins they have done to me. Every group of friends always has that one person you talk about when you're not there. You know what I mean, the annoying one who is just there, and no one knows why. *Sigh* I believe that I have been that person for quite sometime. Just no one wants to tell me to my face. Heh heh, sometimes I even think that Omni stays with me, just because he's afraid to tell me that he truly hates me. I just wish everyone would just say what they felt and thought, until then I will not have a happy birthday. Not until someone comes clean about the situation...
*Sigh* True love is shown by someone who beats you to a bloody pulp... yeah... ok then... My randomness is kicking in again. Someone better give me a hug. I could use a good snuggling too... Blech.
All the good stuff happens when your sick. This head cold is kicking my ass. I tell you what.
Cough drops and toodles,
Shadow