Family
Welcome Again Into My Shadows:
The news came to me the other day, that my father will need a pacemaker. The hard part about this is, he is a stubborn old man and refuses having anything to help his body. I must say that it does affect me. My mother asked me to speak to him on the matter. I just don't know how to word things such as this. Mom is concerned and she is trying to hide it, but I can see right through it.
I failed my menu test at work, and if I fail it again I'm going to be fired. Oh well... At least I have enough to pay for car insurance. My boss got angry at me last night. I get things easily confused. My brain just takes a lot of time to process things... I'm sorry I'm such a screw up. What else do you want me to do?
School is becoming more difficult to maintain. I feel like I'm falling behind all the time, but I know that is not the truth. I am keeping up very well, and I don't understand it. I woke up late today, so I came in late for my music test. Plus I didn't even study on it, so I'm expecting to fail. I feel like such a failure.
I went to see Omni last night. I felt so tired and upset about everything. I wanted to tell him everything, but something held me back. The other night before I left him, I started crying. Poor Omni didn't understand why or what was going on. I just couldn't tell him. But he ended up crying because I was upset. I still am, and just can't seem to find the right words to tell him.
Anyway, the point is I'm suffering again. I thought about seeing another shrink since the bouts have been very strong again. Almost to the point of doing something very bad... but I made promises, and I intend not to break them.
Tears and Toodles,
Shadow
The news came to me the other day, that my father will need a pacemaker. The hard part about this is, he is a stubborn old man and refuses having anything to help his body. I must say that it does affect me. My mother asked me to speak to him on the matter. I just don't know how to word things such as this. Mom is concerned and she is trying to hide it, but I can see right through it.
I failed my menu test at work, and if I fail it again I'm going to be fired. Oh well... At least I have enough to pay for car insurance. My boss got angry at me last night. I get things easily confused. My brain just takes a lot of time to process things... I'm sorry I'm such a screw up. What else do you want me to do?
School is becoming more difficult to maintain. I feel like I'm falling behind all the time, but I know that is not the truth. I am keeping up very well, and I don't understand it. I woke up late today, so I came in late for my music test. Plus I didn't even study on it, so I'm expecting to fail. I feel like such a failure.
I went to see Omni last night. I felt so tired and upset about everything. I wanted to tell him everything, but something held me back. The other night before I left him, I started crying. Poor Omni didn't understand why or what was going on. I just couldn't tell him. But he ended up crying because I was upset. I still am, and just can't seem to find the right words to tell him.
Anyway, the point is I'm suffering again. I thought about seeing another shrink since the bouts have been very strong again. Almost to the point of doing something very bad... but I made promises, and I intend not to break them.
Tears and Toodles,
Shadow