today eh.....

[shadoweinmaster]

today was great well the end of the day was ahn sweeet love but before hand oo some people need to die i swear i will end their lives they really are quite annoying and there existence is only around to get in my way i tend to imagine how easy it would be to kill him to stab him to beat him until he couldnt move how easy everything would be if i was insane enough to murder my problems away ha yes it would be good but i may end up killing some good friends ex obsessions or family members. so im not going down that road just know that who this is about better not end up on my bad side like he almost did today hes been getting on my nerves lately and ive been getting sick of it. but anyway after school is where my true heart lies where the world feels better where my sadness ends for a short time. Yes o yes did i love my rehearsel lol everyone knows what im talking bout right well ewveryone who cares about the girl i like yes im so happy lol she was wihth me like all rehearsel just casuallytouching me not in a dirty way lol. she tryed to leave a hand print on my arm but just left one on my heart lmao sry had to say that line to see hwtad youd all think lol its gay not even poetic just gay. but anyway yeah my polish skin didnt work and it just made red blobs on my arms. yes she was like an angel of the blue green eyes that were light yet strong. ah shes great yet i seriously dont have a shot in my life. so why do i like her why do i enjoy being near her. dont ask, theres other certain girls i get like this with too lol but they dont know it the girl who is in my rehearsel that i keep talking bout (hint hint to anyone else in my rehearsel lmao, or not i just wanted to say hint hint). she doesnt know i like her and im glad she doesnt cause she might not talk to me or anything as much as she does. i really like her but i dont like her too much. because i know it will never work out lol so yeah let me stop my bitching lol and get on to yesterday sense i wasnt online cause my dads an asshole.
alright yesterday i spent the 30 minutes after school with michelle ha ha cute little girl i know ergh i want her lol. i cant have her thou cause my best friend is her sister so yeah. also yesterday i wrote like longer than 1/2 a page poem type thing about something that took bout two seconds lol. yeah shes amazing i smiled like for five striaght minutes as a walked away lol great nessi thoguht i could get over that one girl im over the one i was in love with just not the one who is better than the sun goddess lol. yeah very confusing especially if you dont speak crazy wiht me lol. noone does so dont worry but yeah ok im going yesterday and today were great people i like and me ha ha yes the people i like and meee (even though i dont have a chance with themmmmmmmmmmmmmm lol)