its been forever and a day
i guess i have been busy and sick... not really interested in updating... i started writing in my RL journal... so that has helped me... i guess i decided to write in my LJ today because i am alittle upset... its no big deal..and i am sure i will be okay... im always okay... well here is what has happened to me.. since the last time i updated... i got a puppy ... yey! his name is chato ... he is a chihuahua ... and he is so cute... i love him alot... sometimes he gets on my nerves... but its okay... anyways... some otehr new things... ive gone back and forth from SD and LA ... and if you are wondering why... its because of my wonderful boyfriend... i love him so much... he is my life... and my soul ... and i dont know what i would do with out him... sometimes i wish i could take away all his pain ... so make him feel like the most important person in the world... because he is... i love him so much ... he has asked me what i would do with out him ... and truthfully i dont know... because i dont want to think about being with out him... i dont ever want to be with out him... ive had nightmares about him leaving me .. .and i wake up crying... ive cried because i miss him so much... i hope he understands... even if i am to young to know what love is ... i dont care ... because all i know is that i care about him more then anything in the whole world... and i would do anything to make him happy... i may not know what love is... but i know i would be the happiest person in the world if i could spend every moment of the rest of my life completely content being with him... spending the hard times and the good times with him... and helping him through anything that brings him down... i care more about him then i could ever care about anyone else... if im not in love... then im simply the happiest person in the whole world... i have to go now... im crying ... for very wrong reasons.... ill post later... or maybe not ...