.im.just.trying.to.survive.in.this.crazy.world.
god summer was going kinda good then bam everything has seriously sucked since i got home from my aunts. like seriously its like all back to being depressed all the time and its not cool. and like my parents blame me for every little thing that goes wrong. and im trying soooo hard to stay outta trouble but it always seems to find me. its jus that things are sooo tempting. ugh. i refuse to go back and do stupid shit again. i thought i was past all that but i guess not. jus lil reminders bring me back. ughugh.
well i guess the rest of summer is going to be quite busy and yet heartbreaking. i cant wait fer my cousins grad party thats like going to be the highlight (i hope neways) of the rest of my summer. and omg i cant wait til Lindsay comes home! i miss her sooo much. i wish she didnt live so far away. ugh. and then of course my sisters wedding is coming up but that for me is becoming more of a depressing event than happy. which is fucked up i kno but yet still. and my sister all expects me to bring sum one and i have no fuckin clue who to bring cuz anyone i might bring wouldnt kno anyone and that would be awkward for them and id feel bad. soo damn annoying. i hate life. freakin and ive been realizing lately how much of a bitch i am and like idk. im sry to all the ppl that like have to always hear me complaining and shit. and like im sry fer all the dumb fights ive caused and shit. i guess im jus a horrible person.
ugh im out fer now....but ill write soon cuz i have a lot to say
well i guess the rest of summer is going to be quite busy and yet heartbreaking. i cant wait fer my cousins grad party thats like going to be the highlight (i hope neways) of the rest of my summer. and omg i cant wait til Lindsay comes home! i miss her sooo much. i wish she didnt live so far away. ugh. and then of course my sisters wedding is coming up but that for me is becoming more of a depressing event than happy. which is fucked up i kno but yet still. and my sister all expects me to bring sum one and i have no fuckin clue who to bring cuz anyone i might bring wouldnt kno anyone and that would be awkward for them and id feel bad. soo damn annoying. i hate life. freakin and ive been realizing lately how much of a bitch i am and like idk. im sry to all the ppl that like have to always hear me complaining and shit. and like im sry fer all the dumb fights ive caused and shit. i guess im jus a horrible person.
ugh im out fer now....but ill write soon cuz i have a lot to say