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This isnt the easiest thing to explain.. i spent a day away from this place, happy as can be. coming home to a bunch of shit.
Well the same bull shit
i realized today, that he is my ecstasy. nothing else mattered when i was with him, but the second he left. my world hit rock bottom. seeming to curve into a deep depression atm.
i mean i shouldnt be, consering the feelings i felt.
i love how easliy i fit into his arms.
Or how our hands seems to be a perfect match.
How it almost made me sick.. waiting for him, i was so nervous.
the way his kiss felt.
or how he said i love you
even something so simple as how he smiles..
or his lisp.
and i hate the fact i dont know when im gonna see him again.
and i think its slowly killing me.
something so good.. shouldnt be so far.
I am so stressed lately. and i cant pin point all the reasons. which makes it worse.
Well the basics.
School.
Kelly.
Band.
And what i just explained above.
Plus i know theres more. There has to be with how im feeling.
I got so mad at kelly today i punched the stall in the girls wash room. and i would of done it more then once, if someone didnt walk in.she'll cry. and when you ask her whats wrong. she'll say nothing. How fucking stupid do we look? And getting mad at me for something she doesnt know is true.
im sorry not mad.
Angry. I guess is the rigth word.
This place is driving me nuts.
i should go to bed.. its 12:13.. and i have school tomorrow.
-Sarah