lost in the darkness
last night it hit me..i'm lost my life has seem to hit a ditch,it hit me that once again i'm going to have to put my family before myself.i was deep in thought last night when it hit me i can't afford to go back to school and pay the first month rent and when that hit all my dreams crumbled and i felt empty,useless and a failure.I need to go back so i can make a future both for myself and for my family,both the one i have now and the one i'd like in the future.it tears me in two half of me wants to be the good son and help the house and my other side says do what you want. Two sides of the same damnable coin.but either way i feel guilt one side for letting down my family the other for letting down myself.