let me slip away
Today I received my first paycheck.
I made a copy, because while it may not seem like a big deal, it really is to me.
While I was at work today, I thought, for once I don't feel like I'm not doing anything with my life. Even though it was tiring, and somewhat hectic(including all the paper cuts), I was finally somewhat...independent. Lol Sounds silly...I suppose, but whatever. It's liberating.
Knowing I have a "lunch break". Makes me smile and worry all at the same time.*
I'm not sure if I've mentioned it before,
but anything involving money makes me really uncomfortable
and I really just try to avoid talking about it.
On the other hand, having my own money feels great.
I've always been one to save whatever money I have, but
this time I feel like giving. When I told my mom that I wanted
to spend my paycheck on gifts, she was in disbelief because of the
aforementioned. When I was buying the first two gifts, I promise you
when I say that I've never been happier. I love that I picked out
those gifts individually and carefully because I care about both of them.
I know they'll love it. Well, I hope they do. If not, then they can suck it.
lol
I'm somewhat disappointed in my grades. I did get only A's and B's, but still. I know
I could've done better. I really slacked off. And even though I left everything for last minute, I still did it again...and again...and again.
I need a wall calendar. I like counting days off for some reason. It gives me a sort of satisfaction knowing that I'm aware of what's going on around me. Hard to explain. I like being organized, but if I'm not in the mood, then my room will look like a cyclone happened drop by.
I'm definitely one of those people who makes alot of plans and has all sorts of ideas, but I never seem to execute them. I have so many ambitions, and yet, what am I doing to get there? Nothing. And it all reverts back to money, in some way. Which upsets me. It's all a little difficult to process when you think about the future and how you will apply your dreams to reality. I need to start doing that. Pronto.
*Time: I was speaking to my grandpa (who came along with 534515341 hordes of people from Dom. Rep.) and while he was giving me pointers(as always) about my driving, he pointed out how people are always in a rush here. I asked him if it was the same over there...and he replied that things just flow slower over there. I want to flow slow. Then again, I'd like to enjoy a siesta during the day. Spain? mmm In the future, perhaps.
All of that was relevant to each other.
Trust me.
I made a copy, because while it may not seem like a big deal, it really is to me.
While I was at work today, I thought, for once I don't feel like I'm not doing anything with my life. Even though it was tiring, and somewhat hectic(including all the paper cuts), I was finally somewhat...independent. Lol Sounds silly...I suppose, but whatever. It's liberating.
Knowing I have a "lunch break". Makes me smile and worry all at the same time.*
I'm not sure if I've mentioned it before,
but anything involving money makes me really uncomfortable
and I really just try to avoid talking about it.
On the other hand, having my own money feels great.
I've always been one to save whatever money I have, but
this time I feel like giving. When I told my mom that I wanted
to spend my paycheck on gifts, she was in disbelief because of the
aforementioned. When I was buying the first two gifts, I promise you
when I say that I've never been happier. I love that I picked out
those gifts individually and carefully because I care about both of them.
I know they'll love it. Well, I hope they do. If not, then they can suck it.
lol
I'm somewhat disappointed in my grades. I did get only A's and B's, but still. I know
I could've done better. I really slacked off. And even though I left everything for last minute, I still did it again...and again...and again.
I need a wall calendar. I like counting days off for some reason. It gives me a sort of satisfaction knowing that I'm aware of what's going on around me. Hard to explain. I like being organized, but if I'm not in the mood, then my room will look like a cyclone happened drop by.
I'm definitely one of those people who makes alot of plans and has all sorts of ideas, but I never seem to execute them. I have so many ambitions, and yet, what am I doing to get there? Nothing. And it all reverts back to money, in some way. Which upsets me. It's all a little difficult to process when you think about the future and how you will apply your dreams to reality. I need to start doing that. Pronto.
*Time: I was speaking to my grandpa (who came along with 534515341 hordes of people from Dom. Rep.) and while he was giving me pointers(as always) about my driving, he pointed out how people are always in a rush here. I asked him if it was the same over there...and he replied that things just flow slower over there. I want to flow slow. Then again, I'd like to enjoy a siesta during the day. Spain? mmm In the future, perhaps.
All of that was relevant to each other.
Trust me.