Mom's Passing Is Near...
My mom has been moved into the Hospice House here in Bellingham. It is a beautiful place for her, though she would rather have an ocean view, she's not complaining about the forested view she does have.
Her time is limited and she could go at any time...
She has had 17 hernia surgeries over the last several years, and the 18th hernia is inoperable due to that fact. It is the size of a basket ball now, and is eschemic (No blood flow to it) and has begun literally rotting inside her. By this happening she has become septic and her whole insides are infected. The doctors can do nothing for her except keep her comfortable and wait for her to pass.
Sadly this will be a very slow passing, as she is basically starving herself, and she has said over and over, she is ready to go. She had them stop all IV fluids and put a PIC Line in for meds that she doesn't take orally. One concern is that the external part of the mass may rupture, which would cause a lot more pain and be even harder for the nurses to deal with as it would need cleaning and such several times a day.
I am not ready for her to go yet...but I am working very hard to accept that she is ready, and that since she will no longer be in any pain, that it is the best for her.
Dammit I don't want my mom to die...but that is exactly what is happening.
I can only pray it is peaceful and as pain-free as possible...
Prayers and energies would be truly appreciated as I am pretty much a basket case, and in a massive amount of physical pain myself since having to stop the narcotic pain meds from my Cervical Fusion that I had 2 months ago...
Many Thanks and Blessings To All.
Her time is limited and she could go at any time...
She has had 17 hernia surgeries over the last several years, and the 18th hernia is inoperable due to that fact. It is the size of a basket ball now, and is eschemic (No blood flow to it) and has begun literally rotting inside her. By this happening she has become septic and her whole insides are infected. The doctors can do nothing for her except keep her comfortable and wait for her to pass.
Sadly this will be a very slow passing, as she is basically starving herself, and she has said over and over, she is ready to go. She had them stop all IV fluids and put a PIC Line in for meds that she doesn't take orally. One concern is that the external part of the mass may rupture, which would cause a lot more pain and be even harder for the nurses to deal with as it would need cleaning and such several times a day.
I am not ready for her to go yet...but I am working very hard to accept that she is ready, and that since she will no longer be in any pain, that it is the best for her.
Dammit I don't want my mom to die...but that is exactly what is happening.
I can only pray it is peaceful and as pain-free as possible...
Prayers and energies would be truly appreciated as I am pretty much a basket case, and in a massive amount of physical pain myself since having to stop the narcotic pain meds from my Cervical Fusion that I had 2 months ago...
Many Thanks and Blessings To All.