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I'm at my parent's place right now for a few days watching the dog while they're out of town. I kinda got screwed because I was GONNA go hang out in Gainesville for this stretch of off-days from work, but I had to do this insanely boring task instead. I'll be here til wednesday.
I finally finished Xenosaga III.... and my final word on the matter is.... "ehhhhhh". The end definitely wasn't the shaft that Xenogears was, but I don't know... I guess they just built it up way too much and I didn't feel there was enough of a payoff. I love and hate the guy who wrote those games at the same time. He comes up with awesome ideas, great plots and characters, but then he just throws them all into a big fucking mess that's too convoluted for it's own good. I admit it... I don't enjoy ambiguity. Xenosaga loves being ambiguous and vague... I guess our relationship was doomed from day one! I don't regret playing it... it was interesting enough, and I liked certain aspects of the story, mainly whenever it dealt directly with the characters. But I have to admit I am reluctant to recommend the series as a whole to people after playing through all of them.
Speaking of games.... Final Fantasy XII and Neverwinter Nights 2 both come out tomorrow! (Or technically today I guess) ... Shitdamn, I can't remember the last time there were actually two must-have games out there that I needed to pick up. I haven't had this kind of anticipation for quite awhile... I'll probably end up buying them both at the same time though I won't know which one to play!
I've been wondering alot lately about why I am the way I am today. I haven't been myself for a long time (Ok well I DID know that). I've been at this weird sort of intellectually arrogant state while at the same time resisting becoming a full fledged adult. I get irritated around people who are simply enjoying themselves.... playfulness in general makes me uncomfortable. But I was like that too at one time!! So why not now? I was the weird kid in class... I acted however I felt like. I blurted out whatever came to my mind and whatever I thought was funny. You couldn't take most of the things I said seriously, I was always joking and playing. Some people didn't like it, I knew this... but I had no shame, I didn't really care... or maybe I did? At some point I took the other extreme and completely stopped that behavior altogether. Now I'm just quiet and bitter... and I feel awkward when someone tries to get me to do something as simple as smile. Playful behavior irritates and embarasses me. I can't help but wonder why this happened. Am I repressing this part of me? I hate people for acting in a way that deep down I know I am (or was at one time) perfectly capable of. Why can't I just lighten the hell up!? I put up a shell or defense mechanism or something, and I don't know how to get rid of it! Bleh, I don't know.....
I finally finished Xenosaga III.... and my final word on the matter is.... "ehhhhhh". The end definitely wasn't the shaft that Xenogears was, but I don't know... I guess they just built it up way too much and I didn't feel there was enough of a payoff. I love and hate the guy who wrote those games at the same time. He comes up with awesome ideas, great plots and characters, but then he just throws them all into a big fucking mess that's too convoluted for it's own good. I admit it... I don't enjoy ambiguity. Xenosaga loves being ambiguous and vague... I guess our relationship was doomed from day one! I don't regret playing it... it was interesting enough, and I liked certain aspects of the story, mainly whenever it dealt directly with the characters. But I have to admit I am reluctant to recommend the series as a whole to people after playing through all of them.
Speaking of games.... Final Fantasy XII and Neverwinter Nights 2 both come out tomorrow! (Or technically today I guess) ... Shitdamn, I can't remember the last time there were actually two must-have games out there that I needed to pick up. I haven't had this kind of anticipation for quite awhile... I'll probably end up buying them both at the same time though I won't know which one to play!
I've been wondering alot lately about why I am the way I am today. I haven't been myself for a long time (Ok well I DID know that). I've been at this weird sort of intellectually arrogant state while at the same time resisting becoming a full fledged adult. I get irritated around people who are simply enjoying themselves.... playfulness in general makes me uncomfortable. But I was like that too at one time!! So why not now? I was the weird kid in class... I acted however I felt like. I blurted out whatever came to my mind and whatever I thought was funny. You couldn't take most of the things I said seriously, I was always joking and playing. Some people didn't like it, I knew this... but I had no shame, I didn't really care... or maybe I did? At some point I took the other extreme and completely stopped that behavior altogether. Now I'm just quiet and bitter... and I feel awkward when someone tries to get me to do something as simple as smile. Playful behavior irritates and embarasses me. I can't help but wonder why this happened. Am I repressing this part of me? I hate people for acting in a way that deep down I know I am (or was at one time) perfectly capable of. Why can't I just lighten the hell up!? I put up a shell or defense mechanism or something, and I don't know how to get rid of it! Bleh, I don't know.....