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Mmmm, relaxing with a pizza at work while screwing around on the internet. Maybe I'm too hard on this job sometimes. Really, I just blame my own neuroticism. Admittedly, things that wouldn't phase other people get me fuming (There are cases where the opposite is true as well). I get pissed off at people for simply being in the lobby.... they don't even have to be bothering me, I just don't want them down here! I'm aware that I'm the unreasonable one in that situation, but I can't really control my instincts when it comes to that. I get the same feeling when uninvited people come into my room..... this tense feeling just sort of overwhelms me, and I can't think straight about anything other than my desire for them to get the hell out. Anyways, yeah.. tonight seems to be ok so far at least. On a friday at that! Yay for summer being over!
I gotta figure out now how I'm gonna maintain my weight, because I think I'm pretty much done losing anything more that's significant (In the last year, I have lost almost 50 pounds!). I could actually still stand to lose another 10-15 or so if I really wanted to be ideal but ehh, fuck it. I've decided this is good enough, and I'm not sure my lifestyle would realistically allow me to maintain much better than this anyway. I've been slacking on working out since the last few weeks of my rank 13 grind in WoW and I lost my momentum though. I think if I can get back into it, I can afford to not be such a tightass when it comes to food and still not have to worry about gaining anything back. I also have to start thinking of new excuses of why most girls don't show an interest in me in order to keep my sanity cause I can't use my weight anymore.
I might go to Gainesville on this next stretch of days off that I have... cause the last one for me was REALLY bad. I was so bored that all I could do was sleep.... and then I would wake up, realize there was still nothing to do so I just slept more. Kinda like what I'd probably do if I was in prison. I really need more friends. It's true that I need to be alone alot, but I don't wanna be alone ALL THE TIME.... I need a balance.
I gotta figure out now how I'm gonna maintain my weight, because I think I'm pretty much done losing anything more that's significant (In the last year, I have lost almost 50 pounds!). I could actually still stand to lose another 10-15 or so if I really wanted to be ideal but ehh, fuck it. I've decided this is good enough, and I'm not sure my lifestyle would realistically allow me to maintain much better than this anyway. I've been slacking on working out since the last few weeks of my rank 13 grind in WoW and I lost my momentum though. I think if I can get back into it, I can afford to not be such a tightass when it comes to food and still not have to worry about gaining anything back. I also have to start thinking of new excuses of why most girls don't show an interest in me in order to keep my sanity cause I can't use my weight anymore.
I might go to Gainesville on this next stretch of days off that I have... cause the last one for me was REALLY bad. I was so bored that all I could do was sleep.... and then I would wake up, realize there was still nothing to do so I just slept more. Kinda like what I'd probably do if I was in prison. I really need more friends. It's true that I need to be alone alot, but I don't wanna be alone ALL THE TIME.... I need a balance.