The Negativeness needs to stop!
No one respects my decisions.
Yes, I did withdraw from school.
All my friends are treating me like crap because of it, like it makes me any different. Just like when I failed. It really hurts me inside, as I feel like I am not good enough anymore, makes me feel like I am worthless. No one is standing beside me, no one is respecting my decision in life. Its MY life. Let me at least live it out as I see fit, I may make mistakes, but I'm only human. Nobody seems to want me to make decisions for myself. Whats the point of living if someones gonna be directing you the whole way through it? I wish my friends, and my girlfriend, would just stop being so negative to me, and stand by me, like they SHOULD. I'd stand by them no matter what decisions they'd make in life, because they're my friends. I care about them, I love them, I'd die for them. I wish I'd get the same that I put out. I try to be as positive as I can to the world. I'm trying my hardest. I'm working on getting a full-time 40 hour work week job so I can help out with the bills, while juggling a full teenage life and taking the night school courses. Yes, I AM GOING TO GET THAT DAMN DIPLOMA. At least with the night school, I'll always be up for it, as I normally am up during the night. (I seem to have a really fucked up sleeping schedule, plus I dont like mornings, I'm not a morning person.) I want to graduate as soon as possible, so I can start to take all my computer certifaction courses, so I can get a high paying job, and live my life nicely, and take care of my mother too. You all should stop being so negative to me, its just making things harder for me, its making me wanna stop going online, hell, basicilly stop living, stop trying. Your negativity is just going to pull me down. I'm trying the best that I can in life, and I need people to stand by me and give me support, not pull me down.
Help me, please. If you care that is. If your really my friend.
I love you Chrissy, I'm sorry things didnt turn out the way you wanted them to, but tearing me down isnt going to help the situation get any better, its just gonna make it worse.
Just support me and be there for me people! Thats all I am asking!!
PLEASE.