no longer crying. still teary eyed though.
this is from today. well, yesterday now i guess...
Today was a very good day. Which was crucial cause i had a really rough night.
But first: yesterday.
Yesterday started off like everyday so far. My aunt woke me up earlier than I'd like for no real reason. We went shopping for groceries for the evening as well as the weekend as we'll be entertaining guests for football on Sunday. She made lasagna for that night and gumbo for the football game. We went to my cousin Nicole's house that she and her fiancé just bought. She has a kid now, Caroline. I'm guessing she's a bout two and totally cute.
You know how there's super ugly babies? I was dreading having to lie and be like, "aw, she's so cute!" and then totally cringe at the abject lie on the inside. But thank god for small favors, she's totally adorable. She took one look at me and started crying. I mean, she threw a fucking tantrum.
This face a swear……it's no wonder Jess left me.
My cousin Nicky is hilarious. She's pregnant again and totally hormonal. She bullies her fiancé around mercilessly. She calls him names, mocks the way he talks, the whole 9 yards. And the finniest thing is that he totally takes it. Not a word from him. What a doormat haha. Anyhow, turns out she's a republican and mildly homophobic and racist, like most people in Florida. Like she doesn't mind gays, blacks, muslims, and latinos singularly but in big groups? Forget about it. I don't mean to bash her, she's awesome but I just haven't seen her in so long it came as a bit of a shock. Florida is racist and homophobic, just in case you didn't know. It is around here at least.
I got to shoot guns after that. My uncle has a rifle and a shotgun. Rifles I've done but shotguns never. It was awesome. I mean, there's something about firing a big ass gun like that that is all encompassingly satiating. Sliding the shell in, flipping the barrel shut, cocking the trigger, the shock of the recoil, the sound, the sound the shell makes when it hits the pavement…
...fucking awesome.
Too tired to write more. I'll fill anyone that still gives a shit on today, tomorrow.
Today was a very good day. Which was crucial cause i had a really rough night.
But first: yesterday.
Yesterday started off like everyday so far. My aunt woke me up earlier than I'd like for no real reason. We went shopping for groceries for the evening as well as the weekend as we'll be entertaining guests for football on Sunday. She made lasagna for that night and gumbo for the football game. We went to my cousin Nicole's house that she and her fiancé just bought. She has a kid now, Caroline. I'm guessing she's a bout two and totally cute.
You know how there's super ugly babies? I was dreading having to lie and be like, "aw, she's so cute!" and then totally cringe at the abject lie on the inside. But thank god for small favors, she's totally adorable. She took one look at me and started crying. I mean, she threw a fucking tantrum.
This face a swear……it's no wonder Jess left me.
My cousin Nicky is hilarious. She's pregnant again and totally hormonal. She bullies her fiancé around mercilessly. She calls him names, mocks the way he talks, the whole 9 yards. And the finniest thing is that he totally takes it. Not a word from him. What a doormat haha. Anyhow, turns out she's a republican and mildly homophobic and racist, like most people in Florida. Like she doesn't mind gays, blacks, muslims, and latinos singularly but in big groups? Forget about it. I don't mean to bash her, she's awesome but I just haven't seen her in so long it came as a bit of a shock. Florida is racist and homophobic, just in case you didn't know. It is around here at least.
I got to shoot guns after that. My uncle has a rifle and a shotgun. Rifles I've done but shotguns never. It was awesome. I mean, there's something about firing a big ass gun like that that is all encompassingly satiating. Sliding the shell in, flipping the barrel shut, cocking the trigger, the shock of the recoil, the sound, the sound the shell makes when it hits the pavement…
...fucking awesome.
Too tired to write more. I'll fill anyone that still gives a shit on today, tomorrow.