Because she'll only turn 21 once...
After 21 years of my life I came to a conclusion that I don't like birthdays. Ever since I turned 16, I couldn't feel all that excitement anymore, it just vanished. Even though all of my birthdays have been really great. It felt nice and at the same time kind of exhausting to get all those greetings.
However, what I feel today is not being 21. What I feel today is that exactly 1 year ago I walked out of the plane in Helsinki-Vantaa airport and stepped on the Finnish ground. I try to remember how it felt. Usually there is always some music to associate such moments with. I have 2 songs which remind me of leaving Finland back then, but nothing to remind me of coming there. Yet I do remember how great it felt. And also how great were all of the other things that happened during that week. Even though this week is going to be a dream come true, it will be full of excitement (it already is in fact), yet if I could choose to go through events of this week or my first week in Finland, I'd still choose the latter. It was magical, it has some of my best memories. I hoped for the best, but of course I couldn't know where I will be in a year.
Now that year has passed, I am 21, I live in Finland, I have my dreams coming true. Yet still I don't have something that made it so magical back then. Or actually.. someone. I know it is pathetic, but this week I am going to live with the memories of the past.
However, what I feel today is not being 21. What I feel today is that exactly 1 year ago I walked out of the plane in Helsinki-Vantaa airport and stepped on the Finnish ground. I try to remember how it felt. Usually there is always some music to associate such moments with. I have 2 songs which remind me of leaving Finland back then, but nothing to remind me of coming there. Yet I do remember how great it felt. And also how great were all of the other things that happened during that week. Even though this week is going to be a dream come true, it will be full of excitement (it already is in fact), yet if I could choose to go through events of this week or my first week in Finland, I'd still choose the latter. It was magical, it has some of my best memories. I hoped for the best, but of course I couldn't know where I will be in a year.
Now that year has passed, I am 21, I live in Finland, I have my dreams coming true. Yet still I don't have something that made it so magical back then. Or actually.. someone. I know it is pathetic, but this week I am going to live with the memories of the past.