Kun hetken vain sut pitää saan ja unohtaa...
I wanted to write down my thoughts about coming back to Finland, but yesterday completely striked me out. For a while. But it won't bring me down.
Lately I have been feeling quite sad most of the time, being unsatisfied with so many things. But now when I sort of had gone backwards in my life and then back in the present, I feel like kissing everything that surrounds me everyday in Finland.
When I came to Moldova, I knew that everything inside me has changed and I am not the person who has once left it half a year ago. I am not the person who used to live that life back then. I was happy to meet my family and friends, they were all telling me how much they miss me and how it all feels different without me. But what I saw for real is that their lives go on without me perfectly and there is no place for me anymore. Because my place is here.
When I came back to Finland, I really felt like I came home. The Finnish speech around me sounded so...homelike, even though I don't understand everything. But even a simple 'moi moi' when someone was ending their phone call, made me feel all fluffy from the inside. It seems like I started to grow my roots in this city, even though many things might change in the future.
Right from the first day when I came back to Finland, I felt like I am in the right place, people were calling me, making plans, discussing stuff, etc. There were places to go to and stuff to do, which now are MY places and MY stuff.
I don't know what is there to come, but right here and right now I love my life and I love Helsinki so much as I have never loved anyone or anything before.
Kun yössä yksin vaeltaa,
Voi kaltaisensa kohdata
Ja hetken tie on kevyt kaksin kulkea.
Ei etäisyys, ei vuodetkaan.
Ei mikään meitä erota,
Kun hetken vain sut pitää saan
Ja unohtaa.
Lately I have been feeling quite sad most of the time, being unsatisfied with so many things. But now when I sort of had gone backwards in my life and then back in the present, I feel like kissing everything that surrounds me everyday in Finland.
When I came to Moldova, I knew that everything inside me has changed and I am not the person who has once left it half a year ago. I am not the person who used to live that life back then. I was happy to meet my family and friends, they were all telling me how much they miss me and how it all feels different without me. But what I saw for real is that their lives go on without me perfectly and there is no place for me anymore. Because my place is here.
When I came back to Finland, I really felt like I came home. The Finnish speech around me sounded so...homelike, even though I don't understand everything. But even a simple 'moi moi' when someone was ending their phone call, made me feel all fluffy from the inside. It seems like I started to grow my roots in this city, even though many things might change in the future.
Right from the first day when I came back to Finland, I felt like I am in the right place, people were calling me, making plans, discussing stuff, etc. There were places to go to and stuff to do, which now are MY places and MY stuff.
I don't know what is there to come, but right here and right now I love my life and I love Helsinki so much as I have never loved anyone or anything before.
Kun yössä yksin vaeltaa,
Voi kaltaisensa kohdata
Ja hetken tie on kevyt kaksin kulkea.
Ei etäisyys, ei vuodetkaan.
Ei mikään meitä erota,
Kun hetken vain sut pitää saan
Ja unohtaa.