Our time is waiting right outside your door
People truly can never be satisfied. I got what I wanted, my dream came true, I live in a fabulous country and there are two tickets in my wallet for really cool gigs this Saturday, which costed basically nothing. And still...
I guess it is a normal thing to have feelings like that, because when I ask my friends - they do feel the same sometimes. I just feel like..yeah..everything is so cool and stuff... but still I am all alone and there is nobody who would care about me here. Then I always tell myself that it is enough of being a little wuss and it's time to grow up already and take care of yourself. Afterall, who takes care of our parents but them? And then I always bump into another wall in my mind, a wall that I can't really break - I don't want to grow up. It is really scary for me. So yeah, I do get moments like this from time to time...like..what is the point of living your dream when there is nobody you can share it with?
I used to have this very very little and simple dream of my own. I have never told about it to anyone. And now I realize that this little and simple dream will probably never come true. It is like... like you stole a candy from the kitchen to give it to a guy you like in school.. but then you forgot or the guy didn't show up or whatever...and in the end the candy got spoiled already and all you could do is just throw it away. This is how I feel like. I was hoping for this thing to happen for a very long time and now I just realize that I have to give up on it. It hurts a lot to see something so simple and little dying. The little dream involved a certain person and that's why I don't really want to write all the details. However, as I said it was really simple and it would make me so happy. But it won't. It just won't.
Because someone just won't.
I guess it is a normal thing to have feelings like that, because when I ask my friends - they do feel the same sometimes. I just feel like..yeah..everything is so cool and stuff... but still I am all alone and there is nobody who would care about me here. Then I always tell myself that it is enough of being a little wuss and it's time to grow up already and take care of yourself. Afterall, who takes care of our parents but them? And then I always bump into another wall in my mind, a wall that I can't really break - I don't want to grow up. It is really scary for me. So yeah, I do get moments like this from time to time...like..what is the point of living your dream when there is nobody you can share it with?
I used to have this very very little and simple dream of my own. I have never told about it to anyone. And now I realize that this little and simple dream will probably never come true. It is like... like you stole a candy from the kitchen to give it to a guy you like in school.. but then you forgot or the guy didn't show up or whatever...and in the end the candy got spoiled already and all you could do is just throw it away. This is how I feel like. I was hoping for this thing to happen for a very long time and now I just realize that I have to give up on it. It hurts a lot to see something so simple and little dying. The little dream involved a certain person and that's why I don't really want to write all the details. However, as I said it was really simple and it would make me so happy. But it won't. It just won't.
Because someone just won't.