A story about a girl and a sin
Интересно, а где та любовь?
Та любовь, которой так много....
Have you noticed that when you look at the clear blue sky (only clear blue), you have some kind of dots in your eyes?... But if you look at something else, you won't see them anymore. As well you won't see them if the sky is clouded. I've never tried to take them out, because I could never feel them. But I used to blink my eyes for many times and they still won't go.
This is how everything looks to me at the moment. First I see a clear picture of what is yet to come (and I know it will), but then those dots of doubts appear.. and I can't get rid of them *sigh*
There was some kind of magical snow yesterday. The snowflakes were so little, but they were everywhere, like little white flies and you couldn't understand where do they come from and where they go. Today it is not snowing..outside.. But it is snowing inside, in my inner world. I don't even know if spring comes there at all. I want it to come, but it is only possible if it brings a warm heart with it. A warm heart from a faraway land of ice and snow.
For now there is only a little box of Fazer chocolate candies to warm me up a bit, and maybe Jack will come over tonight too. Nothing else, no depressing couch hugs even...
Я прожила уже больше года без любви. Точнее она есть, здесь, в моём сердце её очень много, очень много для этого сердца и моего маленького мира. Но вот уже больше года я не могу отдать её, эту любовь, тому человеку, которому она принадлежит... Пока не могу. Вот почему-то не могу я написать это на английском.
Baby you're foul in clear conditions
But you're handsome in the fog
So I need some fine wine, and you, you need to be nicer
For the good times and the bad times
That we'll have