holy crap
So, question, what should I get George for his birthday? Mom said a gift card. I thought, we'll have been going out seven months, I hardly ever get to see him, he says he plans to be with me forever--gift card seems a little impersonal for someone like that.
I. Love. Voltaire. The musician, not the philosopher, although he was pretty cool too.
I'm really, really scared about college now. California?? What was I thinking? I won't fit in there at all, first of all, because I'm not rich, not a valley girl, and I'm not Jennifer. I dress... a little differently from them. And, I'll be at a Christian school... where some people are actually serious about it. And if I want to keep my scholarship, I have to keep going to church. Which I don't really mind, it's just that it's another place I have to fit in at. And how am I going to make friends there? And George and I will be 2000+ miles apart. I told him, "Well, you only have a year and a half left in the army, and you can have a real life again." To which he replied, "What does it matter, when my life will be 2000 miles away??"
I turn 18 Tuesday. Yay me. It's really rather depressing. I'm not closer to having freedom.
But I will be when I'm in California...........
That's what it is to me, freedom. Scary, yes, but I think I can live with it.
I miss English class a lot.