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Met Lois this afternoon and had a wonderful time, most of which was spent in the pub!
We chatted about the usual things (Morrissey, people we hate, career frustrations..yes, we enjoy whinging), there's something so refreshing in just being me, entirely me...not hiding any facet of who i am in order to fit in or not seem like the odd one in the crowd. Lois said the same thing to me, it seems we share the same sense of social awkwardness/displacement. When i spend time with her i just feel so much happier, so much more content with who i am and that's a fucking rare feeling for me. She means the world to me and i'm really grateful to her for visiting today, i had the best day i've had in a long while...and i was rather touched when Lois returned that compliment as i hugged her goodbye a few hours ago.
In an ideal world i think we'd be a couple; i have strong feelings for her and she's admitted vice versa, but she's at Wolverhampton uni most of the year and long distance relashonships never work, at least not for me. I might even be tempted to go as far as saying i feel like she's my ideal partner...we love alot of the same music, both appreciate foriegn cinema, neither of us drink that much and we're both fairly downbeat people (but when we're together we're very jovial). They say some things are meant to be...time will tell whether Lois and i are supposed to be together. Obviously i hope we are, but i'm not going to raise my hopes only to have them dashed. I'm determined to stay pessimistic about it, if only to save myself from any heartache.
We chatted about the usual things (Morrissey, people we hate, career frustrations..yes, we enjoy whinging), there's something so refreshing in just being me, entirely me...not hiding any facet of who i am in order to fit in or not seem like the odd one in the crowd. Lois said the same thing to me, it seems we share the same sense of social awkwardness/displacement. When i spend time with her i just feel so much happier, so much more content with who i am and that's a fucking rare feeling for me. She means the world to me and i'm really grateful to her for visiting today, i had the best day i've had in a long while...and i was rather touched when Lois returned that compliment as i hugged her goodbye a few hours ago.
In an ideal world i think we'd be a couple; i have strong feelings for her and she's admitted vice versa, but she's at Wolverhampton uni most of the year and long distance relashonships never work, at least not for me. I might even be tempted to go as far as saying i feel like she's my ideal partner...we love alot of the same music, both appreciate foriegn cinema, neither of us drink that much and we're both fairly downbeat people (but when we're together we're very jovial). They say some things are meant to be...time will tell whether Lois and i are supposed to be together. Obviously i hope we are, but i'm not going to raise my hopes only to have them dashed. I'm determined to stay pessimistic about it, if only to save myself from any heartache.