Moving on
The past few days i have been a brooding mess, unfortunatly onyl to be set off with the past two days. An unfortunate side effect of my heritage, is when i get pissed, i stay like that until i drive myself into the ground. Energy from pure frustration and/or rage. A day where i wish i can just go home and curl up to a bottle of vodka, underage or not. Thats what my job puts me though, and its just stupid, but i can't help but let the little things pick at my nerves.
But then again, life is to short to let moments like this to take over. I had a bit of fun on my birthday, and this previous weekened was too good to become destroyed by my job. Got a Soviet vodka flask from Dave for my birthday and spent all friday showing it off to everyone. And then Saturday night at the Kareoke bar was just amazing. And then spent all day sunday working on my Warmachine figures with friends. A shame i have to focus back and find my center again. I was so peaceful sunday.
But here is on to the road of repair. I've come to terms with myself in some areas. I have quite a few issues to sort through, and unfortunatly i may not find a girlfriend, unless they come up and just make that move first. But the past should stay as the past, and i'll try to not let it impede me anymore. But i really need to sit down and look at my future, and a possible drastic career change to something i have contemplated for quite a while now.
But then again, life is to short to let moments like this to take over. I had a bit of fun on my birthday, and this previous weekened was too good to become destroyed by my job. Got a Soviet vodka flask from Dave for my birthday and spent all friday showing it off to everyone. And then Saturday night at the Kareoke bar was just amazing. And then spent all day sunday working on my Warmachine figures with friends. A shame i have to focus back and find my center again. I was so peaceful sunday.
But here is on to the road of repair. I've come to terms with myself in some areas. I have quite a few issues to sort through, and unfortunatly i may not find a girlfriend, unless they come up and just make that move first. But the past should stay as the past, and i'll try to not let it impede me anymore. But i really need to sit down and look at my future, and a possible drastic career change to something i have contemplated for quite a while now.