letter to a distant friend
i dont think you know how much i need you. where have you been? i appologized for being distant but what have you turned around and done to me? i want things to work, no matter how much i deny it and play it down you mean the world to me. i know that you'll never get this so i guess thats why it easier to say things here. i had a dream about you last night. the first about you in a long time. i guess our subconcious can really bring to our attention what means the most to us. usually its hidden in symbols and other crap and then sometimes its so blatantly obvious its like a slap in the face. i miss you. i know you're busy and i know i'm not always available but if we really want this to work shouldnt we be doing something about it? i swear i want this more than anything in the world. i really hope i didnt scare you away the other night. i was just trying to be honest. isnt that important in a relationship? so what about communication? i feel like things are now just like they were 2 years ago. i know i dont want them to be like this and i'll do whatever i can to change them and make it okay. but it's not like i can do it alone. do you want to help, or not? cuz if you dont, just let me know so i can wallow in my pathetic ways and stop bothering you.