Only curous to understand Part 4
Later that day:
I dragged my feet along, wondering to myself, 'How long have we been at the fucking Mall?' I sighed wearily, 'I may be in shape, but we have been at the damn Mall, for six, Yes I said SIX hours, one dress, one pair of shoes, one necklace. Six hours,' I ranted in my head as I watched Ivy jump around like a seven year old on crack. Jenks erupted with laughter when Ivy's heel connected with the floor wrong and she skittered into a random shopper, then came to a crashing halt onto the floor. I bet my lip to keep from laughing when I ran to her side, helping her up, she was blushing a deep red, and looking at the floor.
"You never saw that, never! You understand me!" I finally lost it, I howled with laughter. Jenks and I cracked up as Ivy turned redder than a screaming fire engine.
"Rachel! This is so degrading, I need to hide under a rock now!" I grinned, wiping a tear from my eye, I looked at her frantic state and laughed harder, 'Six hours of walking twenty five dollars, low blood sugar zero dollars, dress and shoes three hundred dollars, watching high-blood living vamp bust her ass at the mall. Priceless.' I walked over to her, wrapped her in my arms, she was still mad, but eventually gave in and sighed, "I just made a fool out of myself." She sulked.
I grinned, "Your too cute. You have one, One klutz moment and your going to cry, you make me want to whisk you away, and hide you from the world." She shyly smiled at me, we stared at me for a a moment, before suggesting we go home. I shifted all of our bags to one hand, then took hers with the other, "Oh isn't this as sweet as fairy farts! She shoots some googly eye's at you and you go all soft on me. Tsk, tsk, tsk, your already whipped. She already has you Rache!"
I groaned when I began to realize that I had a nice shiny dog collar and Ivy held the leash. She met my gaze and nodded with a seductive grin flashing lots of fang, and gave me a wink. 'Maybe being owned by Ivy won't be so bad... Well damn, I've talked me into it.'
The drive home was quiet, but it was a comfortable silence. I opened the door for her so she could carry the bags inside without stopping to unlock the door clumsily. I ran as I heard the phone ring, but all I got was the answering machine.
"Hi honey, I've been so worried about you. You didn't call me back, so I thought I'd come over and see how your doing, I'll be over in about an hour or so. I love you, Mom." My face froze, I shifted my weight back and forth, I was nervous about my mom's opinion on Ivy and I, I was entirely too worried to think logically at the moment. Ivy placed a hand against my back to sooth me, I looked at her in relief I was worried terrified that my mother would hurt Ivy. She smiled knowingly, "Help me clean?" Her voice was thick with worry, she went to grab the broom and out of habit began to sweeping. I smiled, and helped her make the house spotless.
Two Hours Later:
'Oh god, Oh god, Oh god! Here she comes, here she comes, here she comes,' Ivy snapped in front of my face, "I'm supposed to be the one having a panic attack, not you. It's your mom, I have to deal with if she likes me or not, I turned you bi, I do believe I should be more worried than you. Calm Down!" My brain melted for a second, and I really did feel calm. Bing Bong, Mom. Calm instantly surged into panic, I swallowed nervously, and ran/ speed walked to the door.
'The door,' I took a breath for courage, I looked back at Ivy. The tenderness in her gaze made the world still for a moment, her head bobbed once, her chin held high she gave me a heart melting smile. 'My knight in shining armor... My mother can say whatever she wants I know I made the right choice.' I opened the door, my mother bounced right in and wrapped me in a tight hug. She made her way through the hall into the living room to stop and appraise Ivy who was as unmoving as a rock. My mother circled her with a devilish little smile and evil looking glint in her eyes, she was apparently happy with what she saw and dove for Ivy. Ivy looked momentarily panicked, but stood her ground, 'My poor, senselessly brave, damsel in distress.' I stood frightened when my mother started crying.
"Mom? Why are you crying?" She looked at me anger in her tear ridden face, she stomped her way over to me, I felt like I was in high-school again and she just got called by the ISS to come and pick me up... again. I swallowed and fear tightened in my stomach making in knot and roll around.
"What in the Turn took you so long?! You should be groveling right now for forgiveness from her for making her wait so long!" I cringed.
"But, Mommy-" She cut me off with a glare, Ivy was doing everything in her power to not laugh, she looked at me smugly over my mother's shoulder.
"No, Go over there right now and get on your hands and knees and beg like a dog!" My jaw dropped, she couldn't really expect me to do this right? This was a joke right? The I got another shot of mom glare and realized she was serious, I bowed my head and slunk over to Ivy. I fell to my knees, put my palms don the floor and got as low to the ground as I could go, I felt absolutely ridiculous. "Ivy, great goddess of... my life, I beg your forgiveness for shunning, and rejecting you for all of these months, and years of co-existing and bad treatment. Do you forgive me, Oh great and al'mighty Ivy?"
She finally lost it, her blank face, her bad-ass vamp cover was entirely shattered as she laughed at my lame-ass speech. I almost died from embarrassment right there, but it was worth it to hear her laugh like that. Her fingers cupped my chin, she brought me up off of the floor telling me I was now officially forgiven.
"So when did you finally realize you were an idiot?"I glared at my mom, 'When did I realize I was stupid for not realizing that I loved her?' I was lost in thought, Ivy smiled and waited patiently.
"I guess the answer has been there all along I thought about it for awhile one day, I was having a bad day and I figured I would think of something that would get my mind off of my problems. And I started thinking about her and why I was still trying to find a comfortable balance, and why I wouldn't try things her way for once. Then I realized, I realized that I didn't want to cheapen my feelings for her by just 'trying' it her way," I looked at the floor, "She means too much to me, to lose her like that." I stared at the floor realizing, 'Just how deep they go back, I realized I loved her long before that I loved her from the day I met her. She was my direct opposite, but was my equal, my true match. I looked at her in a new light, she wouldn't just survive me, she would thrive with me, she was who my mom was talking about when she told me to find someone who could hold their own against the world.'
My eyes scanned Ivy's face, she gave me one of her honest smiles, my mom cleared her throat, and announced that she would be leaving us alone for the night. I gave her a hug, she smiled, hugged Ivy after me telling her to take care of me.
Ivy came back into the church after walking my mom out to the car, I thought about what to say next there were a few times I opened my mouth to speak, but I couldn't find a way to steady my thoughts. She put a delicate hand to my face wiping up a tear I hadn't known I had shed. I looked at her amazed, "How long have you known?"
She stared at me trying to decipher what I meant, "How long have I known what?" She answered warily.
I stared at her really looking at her, "How long have you known we were meant for each other?"
She smiled, her arms wrapped around me in a loving embrace, "I've known since I moved in with you, I knew you were the one when we went our separate ways, when I missed you more and more as the days went by." She brushed a curl behind my ear, her hand caressed my cheek, I rubbed my face against her hand longing for more of her touch, longing to take her away from the cruelty of this world.
"What were you thinking about earlier, after your beautiful speech?" I stared at the brown in her eyes lost in the chocolate, cinnamon pools.
"I was thinking about how afraid I was. I was thinking about how my life would be over if you died, and what I would do if you did die. How you perfect me, how well we work, Ivy. It's amazing, it's so beautiful the love we have the love we have always had for each other. It's overwhelming," Her fingers messaged the nape of my neck trying to keep me calm, trying to tell me without words that she completely understood what I was attempting to say.
She squeezed my neck lightly, "What would you do? What would you do if I really did die?" I looked thoughtfully at her.
"I would beg for you to bind me to you, I would give you everything I could for as long as I could." She gasped taking the words as if I shot her.
"Why would you ever do that? I hate my father for what he's become, why would you ever do that for me?" Anger, pain, and fear filled her words.
I cupped her face in my hands, "Don't you know why he does it?" A tear fell from her face, she shook her head, I wiped it up with a thumb, I kissed her eye.
"He does it so he can see her again, so just maybe this time it might be enough. He provides his soul, he lays it bear for her, so he can see her again, so he can tell her he loves he. Don't you know how beautiful it is? Can't you see it, it's right in front of you! It's absolutely amazing. Ivy I'm not going to pretend to know that I understand this better than you, but I do understand what I know about love. Ivy, the closest I've ever come to making love, to fully giving myself to someone so wholly, so fully not only because I wanted to, but because I loved them so much that I could trust them with everything that I hold dear. Ivy, that was you when we shared blood I gave myself over to you, trusting you with all of me."
She stared deep into my eyes, "I think I understand now, I think I understood what Kisten was trying to tell me all of this time. I think I understand why I stood by my belief that blood is a way to show someone you love them. I think I understand what Mia meant all of those years ago..." She clutched my body pulling us as close to one another as we could get, she sighed a shaky breath, "Thank you so much, thank you for explaining it to me." She was crying tears of relief, knowing that she had been right all along, hell I was crying too. I nuzzled her hair, holding her to me trying desperately to be here for her when she needed me, the most.