Why?
Great, just fucking great. For the first time in... what feels like forever, but is probably closer to two years, I have that feeling in my chest/stomach. The one that feels like my insides are attacking the part of me that feels pain. It's a deep, hollow kind of sensation, which drags me down into an infinite cycle. The cycle consists of feeling the pain, dwelling on it, realizing I am dwelling and deciding to ignore it, but because I am focused on ignoring it, it gets worse. It’s an enigmatic occurrence where an emotion can cause physical pain. It seems the only way to stop it from happening is to become emotionally involved in a movie or TV show so that I may feel from someone else’s perspective and forget about my own. However, it is only a temporary solution.