Poetry Corner
OK.....creation completed. Here is the result:
Love/Loss
Damnit...
Goddamnit...
I promised I wouldn't cry,
That I wouldn't shed a tear as I watched my heart leave
to find its place in the world and the meaning of it all...
Still...a few tears fell...
I said I understood,
That I knew you had to go and why.
I still support that choice,
but missing you makes it all hollow,
just words on a page, or a screen, or in the air...
empty...
...floating...
...adrift...
I told you I could be patient,
That no matter what, I'd always be there.
But now this feels like I am out of tune with your frequency...
I try to change the array, and a fuzzy image flickers into view -
walking on a beach holding hands
talking over a great bottle of wine
holding you as we drift into our dreams
But then the image fades...degrades...
then is gone.
The hardest part is that I don't know why...
What's the interference?
Is there another receiver you're tuning to?
I don't know...
...and I dare not ask...
I made an oath to protect you,
That I'd throw myself in front of the bus...
...the bullet...
...the knife...
I weather it all with a tiger's grit,
But when I turn to check on you,
You're gone -
off gallivanting and romping with some other soul
I stand there - battered, beaten, and worn...
feeling pain not from my wounds,
but from the empty void that has become my chest...
I swore I'd give you space,
That I wouldn't pry or spy, would do everything I could to let you be free.
I know forever can't and won't be now - hell, it may be never -
Yet that makes it that much more desirable,
and I want it...I can't deny it.
But what to do...?
What can I do...?
Damnit...
...Goddamnit.
In other news, my job search is still taking place.....I am starting to carpet bomb southern Cali with resumes, because I simply cannot stay where I am working any more. The guy I liked moved back to California....and is starting to fall for another guy...
I am working my ass off, trying to lose weigh and improve my own self-esteem. It's a hard road I am walking right now.....the pain some times is enough to make my crumble.....but I won't give up. I owe it to myself to do so.
Anywho, let me know what is going on, and let me know what you think of my work.
Love/Loss
Damnit...
Goddamnit...
I promised I wouldn't cry,
That I wouldn't shed a tear as I watched my heart leave
to find its place in the world and the meaning of it all...
Still...a few tears fell...
I said I understood,
That I knew you had to go and why.
I still support that choice,
but missing you makes it all hollow,
just words on a page, or a screen, or in the air...
empty...
...floating...
...adrift...
I told you I could be patient,
That no matter what, I'd always be there.
But now this feels like I am out of tune with your frequency...
I try to change the array, and a fuzzy image flickers into view -
walking on a beach holding hands
talking over a great bottle of wine
holding you as we drift into our dreams
But then the image fades...degrades...
then is gone.
The hardest part is that I don't know why...
What's the interference?
Is there another receiver you're tuning to?
I don't know...
...and I dare not ask...
I made an oath to protect you,
That I'd throw myself in front of the bus...
...the bullet...
...the knife...
I weather it all with a tiger's grit,
But when I turn to check on you,
You're gone -
off gallivanting and romping with some other soul
I stand there - battered, beaten, and worn...
feeling pain not from my wounds,
but from the empty void that has become my chest...
I swore I'd give you space,
That I wouldn't pry or spy, would do everything I could to let you be free.
I know forever can't and won't be now - hell, it may be never -
Yet that makes it that much more desirable,
and I want it...I can't deny it.
But what to do...?
What can I do...?
Damnit...
...Goddamnit.
In other news, my job search is still taking place.....I am starting to carpet bomb southern Cali with resumes, because I simply cannot stay where I am working any more. The guy I liked moved back to California....and is starting to fall for another guy...
I am working my ass off, trying to lose weigh and improve my own self-esteem. It's a hard road I am walking right now.....the pain some times is enough to make my crumble.....but I won't give up. I owe it to myself to do so.
Anywho, let me know what is going on, and let me know what you think of my work.