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so...break ups are harsh. i mean..ive been..through 2 (3 technically..) and its like. heart shattering.
today marks 1 month since he broke up with me and its like, i know im stupid for remembering the small shit...
but how the fuck can i move on?!? i just hate it. my mind wanders and thinks about him, and i see him online and its like..*sigh* i wish things were back to what it was 2 months ago...
i srsly dont know. ive been busying myself up but every night that im up, my mind just starts wandering and its bullshit. i loathe myself..
like if i had a clone of myself, i would just slap myself around and around until i snap out of it.
today i went to a volleyball game and man, my friend's teammate is HELLA FINE. like drool-worthy fine. and he's gay too but i know he's way outta my league, plus i heard he has some guys on the side. =/
1 month...argh. i know being single has its rewards but..the gay community is so small. im not obviously gay so like, guys dont hit on me. and its depressing.
i think i should just go to bed..and start to sleep early
1 month left till i move down and be closer to him...this is like karma putting a bubble tea in the middle of a bear trap when im parched and thirsty.
btw go listen to the song im listening to, pretty good. depicts my life -_-
today marks 1 month since he broke up with me and its like, i know im stupid for remembering the small shit...
but how the fuck can i move on?!? i just hate it. my mind wanders and thinks about him, and i see him online and its like..*sigh* i wish things were back to what it was 2 months ago...
i srsly dont know. ive been busying myself up but every night that im up, my mind just starts wandering and its bullshit. i loathe myself..
like if i had a clone of myself, i would just slap myself around and around until i snap out of it.
today i went to a volleyball game and man, my friend's teammate is HELLA FINE. like drool-worthy fine. and he's gay too but i know he's way outta my league, plus i heard he has some guys on the side. =/
1 month...argh. i know being single has its rewards but..the gay community is so small. im not obviously gay so like, guys dont hit on me. and its depressing.
i think i should just go to bed..and start to sleep early
1 month left till i move down and be closer to him...this is like karma putting a bubble tea in the middle of a bear trap when im parched and thirsty.
btw go listen to the song im listening to, pretty good. depicts my life -_-