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Wow..havent posted in awhile lol. friend of mine brought up the word 'LJ" and i was like. omg must post.
hmm...lets see, last post i wrote was...*checks* about me being official with that guy i met in vancouver.
well from that point...
i decided to move down to vancouver, wa (20min from portland, or) so i can attend WSU down there. i'll be leaving late april/early may so i can attend summer semester which starts mid may. yea..really soon. stressed out big time cuz of finacial worries, family worries, friends, you know the drill. i dont want to leave seattle but its best for me to move out cuz WSU would be easier to graduate out of with higher grades and i'll mature, much faster, than living here in this hellhole of a house.
valentines day was perfect, i went down there to visit him. i made him a handmade ribbon heart (you know what im talking about Tam) and i bought him roses. when i got down there and go to his place, he surprised me with roses, and he picked out my favorite color!! oh man i was soooooo overjoyed. he really was the perfect guy for me...
anyways zoom up to now....
he broke up with me. yea...perfect guy, caused me so much pain. i still dont think the reasons he gave me why he broke up with me were...real. i think it was just excuses cuz his life was pretty fucked up too. too much to write here but, it was really him just living in a day to day basis without planning his future and im ready to leap into a new college and get ready for med school and i think he;s worried that he's dragging me behind. i guess..its noble of him.
*sigh* well, im done crying every night cuz of how much i miss him or hurt him. i didnt even cry this hard/much for my first ex. but he did do me wrong too but i guess my recent ex impacted me in a really complex way, even if we did go out for only 1 month 1 week.
hmm.....so much stress and that stress isnt really about my ex anymore. its more about, planning to move out of seattle, attend a new school in a new town that i dont even know, and how im going to survive by myself (even if im living with a roommate).
i just..pray every night that the plans im making go smoothly..and i hope i can get him back
hmm...lets see, last post i wrote was...*checks* about me being official with that guy i met in vancouver.
well from that point...
i decided to move down to vancouver, wa (20min from portland, or) so i can attend WSU down there. i'll be leaving late april/early may so i can attend summer semester which starts mid may. yea..really soon. stressed out big time cuz of finacial worries, family worries, friends, you know the drill. i dont want to leave seattle but its best for me to move out cuz WSU would be easier to graduate out of with higher grades and i'll mature, much faster, than living here in this hellhole of a house.
valentines day was perfect, i went down there to visit him. i made him a handmade ribbon heart (you know what im talking about Tam) and i bought him roses. when i got down there and go to his place, he surprised me with roses, and he picked out my favorite color!! oh man i was soooooo overjoyed. he really was the perfect guy for me...
anyways zoom up to now....
he broke up with me. yea...perfect guy, caused me so much pain. i still dont think the reasons he gave me why he broke up with me were...real. i think it was just excuses cuz his life was pretty fucked up too. too much to write here but, it was really him just living in a day to day basis without planning his future and im ready to leap into a new college and get ready for med school and i think he;s worried that he's dragging me behind. i guess..its noble of him.
*sigh* well, im done crying every night cuz of how much i miss him or hurt him. i didnt even cry this hard/much for my first ex. but he did do me wrong too but i guess my recent ex impacted me in a really complex way, even if we did go out for only 1 month 1 week.
hmm.....so much stress and that stress isnt really about my ex anymore. its more about, planning to move out of seattle, attend a new school in a new town that i dont even know, and how im going to survive by myself (even if im living with a roommate).
i just..pray every night that the plans im making go smoothly..and i hope i can get him back