Hog Bowl
Apparently the football game against Western, our annual humiliation against our "greatest rivals", actually has a name; The Hog Bowl. Interesting, Hmmm? I'm a junior and i didn't know that until today. If I didn't have such a good time at the game, it would have been a waste of time going. Their drumline didn't play, because their instructor told them not to or something. How annoying. I was eagerly anticipating a good laugh when they tried to show us up. Instead they got me to pity them. Damn it. :|
I got to school late today, so I missed the pep-rally in the morning that I was supposed to play at. I think... Im not really sure, cause I don't have time to keep track of these things. I never do. Which really is a flaw of mine, I put everything off and puch things to the back of my head to make room for even more things, so I always end up procrastinating and then becoming overwhelmed with too much to do. I subconsciously overwork myself to impossible extents all the time. And I NEVER get everything done. Such a pity.
Band has been Canceled For Friday And Saturday. Why? Cause of a stupid hurricane. The season is nearing the end of it's run, and we're slashing off a mini-camp and a freaking competition. I wouldn't mind not having the mini-camp tomorrow, but the competitions are what marching season's all about. And we've been doing surprisingly well, the drumline anyway. Our last score was a 94. We are NOT A 94. Not yet anyway. Last year, a 94 might have been depressing because I would have felt like we deserved better. This year it feels depressing because I know we deserve worse. We haven't put the time in individually or as a group. Bottom line; no one cares enough. Sure, everyone has sudden spurts of determination and leadership every once and a while, but when they express it everyone gets annoyed and then they lose the feeling, only for someone else to do the same. We're not on the same page. And our "captains" are complete idiots. They unknowingly build barriers not between themselves and us, but between everyone. Everyone is constantly trying to get one ups with someone else, to make themselves look what? Better in the eyes of our fools of so called leaders? Sure, the drama has died down a little since earlier in the season, but the tension is still there. Chris even instated a new rule where you lose part of your grade if you misbehave or something.Command should not be controlled by fear, but by respect. Chris will never gain a real level of respect from anyone, its not in his character. Age is what he seems to think matters. He depends on it. He acts like a fool and thinks we'll do as we're told cause he has a year on us. Ha. Marissa is just plain naive. I feel sorry for her. They're both great people, just not respectable captains.
More on this subject - there are people that Jed, our instructor, should have chosen instead. Sam, for example, would be perfect. He gets on my nerves occasionally, but he has my respect. Sometimes he is a lazy bastard like any of us. But for the most part he is more serious about this than anyone. And this maturity would allow him better command of the group than Chris will ever have. Looking at years past my own time here, I see Gonzalez as the captain, not really because he has more respect from the line than normal, but because his competitors have less. And then, even further down the line will be Dan H. I noticed it today during lunch. He's the kind of kid everyone likes, even though he can annoy the hell out of people sometimes. No doubt on that one. But my concerns on the future leaders won't help the sad state that this year is in. Captain Jeff Williams...I miss you....
So far, this whole entry has been about Drumline. This definitely tells me it's consuming most of my life; when it's all thats on my mind. I need to spend more time with my friends. I haven't been over to Pete's for a whole day in a while. Now it's just for an hour or two to try to squeeze in a couple episodes of DVD TV Series here and there. Never time to talk, and since he's in none of my classes or lunch, contact is practically non-existent. Same with Christian, him being at the CA. Some kid named Sebastion is taking my place with him. Damn it, why did the kid have to be named Sebastion. That just makes me look bad, choosing him over me. Heh, but I think Christian is coming over this weekend, that'll be nice. What a personality that kid's got. And Linda, Geez, what's up with her. We haven't really talked for a while now, just bickered and joked and small talked through a couple conversations. Mario? HAHAHA I haven't even seen him for like a month or two. No big loss. Mario is to hard to get a hold of. Damn antisocial jerk. At least Chris is back, I suppose. But the old him might never resurface. Hum.
More on my life tomorrow. Hopefully I'll do nothing and be able to collect and finish my thoughts from today :D
I got to school late today, so I missed the pep-rally in the morning that I was supposed to play at. I think... Im not really sure, cause I don't have time to keep track of these things. I never do. Which really is a flaw of mine, I put everything off and puch things to the back of my head to make room for even more things, so I always end up procrastinating and then becoming overwhelmed with too much to do. I subconsciously overwork myself to impossible extents all the time. And I NEVER get everything done. Such a pity.
Band has been Canceled For Friday And Saturday. Why? Cause of a stupid hurricane. The season is nearing the end of it's run, and we're slashing off a mini-camp and a freaking competition. I wouldn't mind not having the mini-camp tomorrow, but the competitions are what marching season's all about. And we've been doing surprisingly well, the drumline anyway. Our last score was a 94. We are NOT A 94. Not yet anyway. Last year, a 94 might have been depressing because I would have felt like we deserved better. This year it feels depressing because I know we deserve worse. We haven't put the time in individually or as a group. Bottom line; no one cares enough. Sure, everyone has sudden spurts of determination and leadership every once and a while, but when they express it everyone gets annoyed and then they lose the feeling, only for someone else to do the same. We're not on the same page. And our "captains" are complete idiots. They unknowingly build barriers not between themselves and us, but between everyone. Everyone is constantly trying to get one ups with someone else, to make themselves look what? Better in the eyes of our fools of so called leaders? Sure, the drama has died down a little since earlier in the season, but the tension is still there. Chris even instated a new rule where you lose part of your grade if you misbehave or something.Command should not be controlled by fear, but by respect. Chris will never gain a real level of respect from anyone, its not in his character. Age is what he seems to think matters. He depends on it. He acts like a fool and thinks we'll do as we're told cause he has a year on us. Ha. Marissa is just plain naive. I feel sorry for her. They're both great people, just not respectable captains.
More on this subject - there are people that Jed, our instructor, should have chosen instead. Sam, for example, would be perfect. He gets on my nerves occasionally, but he has my respect. Sometimes he is a lazy bastard like any of us. But for the most part he is more serious about this than anyone. And this maturity would allow him better command of the group than Chris will ever have. Looking at years past my own time here, I see Gonzalez as the captain, not really because he has more respect from the line than normal, but because his competitors have less. And then, even further down the line will be Dan H. I noticed it today during lunch. He's the kind of kid everyone likes, even though he can annoy the hell out of people sometimes. No doubt on that one. But my concerns on the future leaders won't help the sad state that this year is in. Captain Jeff Williams...I miss you....
So far, this whole entry has been about Drumline. This definitely tells me it's consuming most of my life; when it's all thats on my mind. I need to spend more time with my friends. I haven't been over to Pete's for a whole day in a while. Now it's just for an hour or two to try to squeeze in a couple episodes of DVD TV Series here and there. Never time to talk, and since he's in none of my classes or lunch, contact is practically non-existent. Same with Christian, him being at the CA. Some kid named Sebastion is taking my place with him. Damn it, why did the kid have to be named Sebastion. That just makes me look bad, choosing him over me. Heh, but I think Christian is coming over this weekend, that'll be nice. What a personality that kid's got. And Linda, Geez, what's up with her. We haven't really talked for a while now, just bickered and joked and small talked through a couple conversations. Mario? HAHAHA I haven't even seen him for like a month or two. No big loss. Mario is to hard to get a hold of. Damn antisocial jerk. At least Chris is back, I suppose. But the old him might never resurface. Hum.
More on my life tomorrow. Hopefully I'll do nothing and be able to collect and finish my thoughts from today :D