And he fights so you won't ignore him... 'cause that's his biggest fear...
Today... well, it was boring, but don't seem to be having the same-old days. Running for an office is a bit stressful for me. But so far so good... and if it goes right, hopefully I'll have M&Ms for everyone in the Sophomore class. REALLY hope I get this position... Vice-Presidency...
Anyways, as some may see, did a few tweaks on my journal today, during programming. Came up with a good idea for the next levels in my game... and I have really gotta save this in a portfolio, turning out real nice (even if it doesn't have real graphics yet). Not really much else happened today. Tomorrow hopefully Mrs. Spuck will have the DDR. She said she was bringing it in, and I asked her today, and she had forgotten but said maybe. She said to check during first period to see if she has it. I really hope she does!!!
Missed Christina. Hopefully I can call her tonight. I just love that girl so much, and it tears me up inside to have her have to go through what she's going through at her school. And I long to see her soon, to hold her, but... she "has plans" this weekend and next weekend... :( is it possible that she doesn't really miss me that badly? I mean, of course, I wouldn't ask her to skip out on those sleepovers... and I don't completely expect her to... but does she even care that they're in the way of us seeing each other? And if she really loves me, wouldn't she not care if she's a bit tired Sunday and come to the youth group anyways? What does she do at those sleepovers anyways? I know a lot of times girls talk about boys at sleepovers... does she just talk about me? How is there that much to talk about me? I mean, we see each other so little 'cause of the distance... and why does she want to go to a sleepover so badly if it's with friends who betrayed not so long ago? Questions are overflowing my mind, but I'm fine with her going. It's not a crime to have questions, right? I mean, I don't doubt that she loves me... I just miss her... and I'm not so sure those "friends" can be trusted this time... how does she know they're gonna be any different? What could've caused them to change? It happened like a couple days after I talked to that one girl, Danielle... and her parents seem to think because of that, I had something to do with it... what could I have said that would've had such an effect on her? And even more so, why did she tell Christina I yelled at her? I didn't yell at her (I have enough self-control). As for what I said... I told her that no matter what happens with Christina's other friends, I will always be her friend, her boyfriend, and her BEST friend. Did that strike her somehow? I have no idea. And I don't know if I'll ever know. But really, I don't care about knowing, I care about Christina. And I want to be with her and fix everything that's wrong in her life...
And today in English, I had to write an ode to my favorite article of clothing, which the teacher said jewelry counts as too, so I chose my necklace... and writing the ode I thought about how strong the message is and how early on in our relationship that Christina gave it to me... she was that sure that early? Unless she didn't understand what it meant. The key to her heart means that I'm the only one who she could ever love. More importantly than back then, though, is now. Does she love me that much? Am I the ONLY one she could EVER love? Because she is for me...
She is for me...
Anyways, as some may see, did a few tweaks on my journal today, during programming. Came up with a good idea for the next levels in my game... and I have really gotta save this in a portfolio, turning out real nice (even if it doesn't have real graphics yet). Not really much else happened today. Tomorrow hopefully Mrs. Spuck will have the DDR. She said she was bringing it in, and I asked her today, and she had forgotten but said maybe. She said to check during first period to see if she has it. I really hope she does!!!
Missed Christina. Hopefully I can call her tonight. I just love that girl so much, and it tears me up inside to have her have to go through what she's going through at her school. And I long to see her soon, to hold her, but... she "has plans" this weekend and next weekend... :( is it possible that she doesn't really miss me that badly? I mean, of course, I wouldn't ask her to skip out on those sleepovers... and I don't completely expect her to... but does she even care that they're in the way of us seeing each other? And if she really loves me, wouldn't she not care if she's a bit tired Sunday and come to the youth group anyways? What does she do at those sleepovers anyways? I know a lot of times girls talk about boys at sleepovers... does she just talk about me? How is there that much to talk about me? I mean, we see each other so little 'cause of the distance... and why does she want to go to a sleepover so badly if it's with friends who betrayed not so long ago? Questions are overflowing my mind, but I'm fine with her going. It's not a crime to have questions, right? I mean, I don't doubt that she loves me... I just miss her... and I'm not so sure those "friends" can be trusted this time... how does she know they're gonna be any different? What could've caused them to change? It happened like a couple days after I talked to that one girl, Danielle... and her parents seem to think because of that, I had something to do with it... what could I have said that would've had such an effect on her? And even more so, why did she tell Christina I yelled at her? I didn't yell at her (I have enough self-control). As for what I said... I told her that no matter what happens with Christina's other friends, I will always be her friend, her boyfriend, and her BEST friend. Did that strike her somehow? I have no idea. And I don't know if I'll ever know. But really, I don't care about knowing, I care about Christina. And I want to be with her and fix everything that's wrong in her life...
And today in English, I had to write an ode to my favorite article of clothing, which the teacher said jewelry counts as too, so I chose my necklace... and writing the ode I thought about how strong the message is and how early on in our relationship that Christina gave it to me... she was that sure that early? Unless she didn't understand what it meant. The key to her heart means that I'm the only one who she could ever love. More importantly than back then, though, is now. Does she love me that much? Am I the ONLY one she could EVER love? Because she is for me...
She is for me...