So cruel to be so blind... darkness was on my side...
Urgh, my parents are just SO unfair. My sister (who's four, by the way), is having a fit because my dad refused to drive through instead of grilling burgers like he planned, and what happens? He has a fit and decides that we won't have dinner at all. Then he called me downstairs, only to yell at me. After he's done blaming me for everything, I started to go to my room. Then he just called me down when I was halfway up the stairs, only to yell at me some more. When I try to go again, he asks me where I'm going, and I tell him that I don't want to stay there and get yelled at when I didn't do anything. Then he yells at me and complains that he's been being yelled at all day. By who? Not me. So why does he have to take it all out on me? I considered calling my mom and asking her to pick something up on her way home from work, but I decided not to. She'd be on my side, of course, but then my parents would get in a huge fight, and I can't stand that. They fight all the time. I never see them say "I love you" to each other, except out of habit. They rarely hug... what kind of relationship do they have? My dad makes mean comments to my mom, like when she was having teeth problem and they were suggesting braces (which her parents couldn't afford for her), my dad said "Why should we bother fixing your teeth? You're almost done with them anyway." And trust me, there's worse stuff he says to her. I NEVER want to be to Christina the way he is to my mom. Ugh... Christina, let's not have a relationship like that. I never want us to be like that. And... it doesn't have a good effect on the kids, either. They didn't get divorced before 'cause they were thinking of me, but if they were really thinking of me and my sister, they wouldn't fight so much in front of us. I just can't wait to get away from my parents. They seem like such great parents to anyone outside of the household. But... *sigh* most people knowing my parents wouldn't believe me in how they are. They aren't just embarrassing. I would rather have more embarrassing parents than just the way they are. I know they try, but... they don't try enough. I just want to get away from them. Be with Christina. She wouldn't yell at me for no reason. Only if I did something stupid would she yell at me, lol. 'Course, that might be kinda often, but I hope she'll be a little lenient. If she really loves me, she will be able to refrain from yelling. Fighting. Unlike my parents...
There's something I'm dying to write, but I gotta wait until after FCWC. Why? Well, I wanna tell Christina in person! If she reads this, it'll ruin it! :)
Today was boring. Very boring. Super-uber-stupid boring. I mean, brain-rotting-inside-out boring. I kept waiting for something good to happen, but nothing did. Highlight of my day was something I found out from Frank's magazine. The game Shadow the Hedgehog. And anyone I know would go crazy for that sort of game. But I'm not; in fact, I'm disappointed. VERY disappointed. ...Shadow has guns. GUNS. WHY THE HECK DOES SHADOW NEED GUNS?!? I always so him as this cool, dark, mysterious guy to look up to! A hero that didn't seem so on the outside! But now guns?!? Shadow is more powerful than guns! Sonic Team really screwed up on this one. Bringing the series into a "more mature theme". Shadow doesn't need guns. Nobody from Sonic, except Eggman, needs guns. Okay, Rouge MAYBE, but Shadow... ugh, anyways... so, sound like an exciting day?
And... after the boringest of boring days, I come home... to be yelled at...
*sigh* Wish Christina was here. I love her sooo much. I just wish I could tell her how much...
Tomorrow looks pretty boring. Saturday, Ted and Frank are coming over. Sleepover. That goes through Sunday... and then Monday... I leave for FCWC. Fun. Eh, I dunno... I am only slightly interested, more nervous and stuff, not that into it, but... I'm going to be with Christina. Who knows, I might like it. And if I don't... well, at least I spent a week with Christina. A week with Christina isn't a week wasted. A SECOND with Christina is never a second wasted. In fact, I could find no better way to spend my time than with the wonderful girl who deserves all my love. Not sure if we'll get the chance, but a kiss would be nice... I go through all that stuff at Build-A-Bear for her, and I don't even get a kiss?!? Haha, I'm just teasin' ya honey! You know I would do all that for you even if I get nothing in return. Just I know you, and I know that you love me enough that you WANT to give me something in return! Well, on Monday, when I tell you what I've been wanting to tell you but wanted to tell you in person (that I mentioned earlier), maybe I will get a kiss... *hint hint* lol, I love ya, my beautiful senorita!
Well, I got more homework, so I should go... I wanna leave a quote, haven't done any in a while...
"Mom and dad might lose their lives! Or worse... their marriage!"
"Wait... their marriage? That bad guys kidnapped dad to mess up... THEIR MARRIAGE?"
There's something I'm dying to write, but I gotta wait until after FCWC. Why? Well, I wanna tell Christina in person! If she reads this, it'll ruin it! :)
Today was boring. Very boring. Super-uber-stupid boring. I mean, brain-rotting-inside-out boring. I kept waiting for something good to happen, but nothing did. Highlight of my day was something I found out from Frank's magazine. The game Shadow the Hedgehog. And anyone I know would go crazy for that sort of game. But I'm not; in fact, I'm disappointed. VERY disappointed. ...Shadow has guns. GUNS. WHY THE HECK DOES SHADOW NEED GUNS?!? I always so him as this cool, dark, mysterious guy to look up to! A hero that didn't seem so on the outside! But now guns?!? Shadow is more powerful than guns! Sonic Team really screwed up on this one. Bringing the series into a "more mature theme". Shadow doesn't need guns. Nobody from Sonic, except Eggman, needs guns. Okay, Rouge MAYBE, but Shadow... ugh, anyways... so, sound like an exciting day?
And... after the boringest of boring days, I come home... to be yelled at...
*sigh* Wish Christina was here. I love her sooo much. I just wish I could tell her how much...
Tomorrow looks pretty boring. Saturday, Ted and Frank are coming over. Sleepover. That goes through Sunday... and then Monday... I leave for FCWC. Fun. Eh, I dunno... I am only slightly interested, more nervous and stuff, not that into it, but... I'm going to be with Christina. Who knows, I might like it. And if I don't... well, at least I spent a week with Christina. A week with Christina isn't a week wasted. A SECOND with Christina is never a second wasted. In fact, I could find no better way to spend my time than with the wonderful girl who deserves all my love. Not sure if we'll get the chance, but a kiss would be nice... I go through all that stuff at Build-A-Bear for her, and I don't even get a kiss?!? Haha, I'm just teasin' ya honey! You know I would do all that for you even if I get nothing in return. Just I know you, and I know that you love me enough that you WANT to give me something in return! Well, on Monday, when I tell you what I've been wanting to tell you but wanted to tell you in person (that I mentioned earlier), maybe I will get a kiss... *hint hint* lol, I love ya, my beautiful senorita!
Well, I got more homework, so I should go... I wanna leave a quote, haven't done any in a while...
"Mom and dad might lose their lives! Or worse... their marriage!"
"Wait... their marriage? That bad guys kidnapped dad to mess up... THEIR MARRIAGE?"