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i guess you can say things are starting to come together, just slowly. i didn't graduate (go figure) but im taking summer school and then getting put on homebound for next year and i'll be done by january. i'm getting a job at taco bell and i don't even care because i eat it every single day and i need money so whatevs man. i've been pretty positive lately, too which is good. adrien and i are doing all right, we fight really bad but we always get over and love each other again. he means so much to me and i hate that our lives are going two different places. got my nose pierced, i dunno just trying to catch up a little. my drinking is starting to worry me, i drink during the day most of the time and stay drunk until it gets light out again. every night. for weeks. and weeks. i had an interview this morning and i had to get up at 8 oclock and i still started drinking at like 4 pm yesterday and didn't stop until about 4 am, slept for 4 hours got up and got ready for my interview. my days just kind of blend together now. hey, if i can stay drunk and still get my shit together then why not. my mom told me today that she will buy me a nice car in january if i graduate and have a job. she thinks im such a slacker, and i guess shes right. i haven't seen anyone lately or talked to any of my friends which sucks. i left my phone in kseniya's car like a week ago and i dont even care to get it back. i havent written anything in like 4 months and i think that's why im so blah about everything. i just don't think it really matters ya know? i don't know what im blathering about i just wanted to update cause i was happy that im finally getting my life together. job, graduate, boyfriend, car, money, school (probably purchase) in january, then life maybe?
miss you guys.
miss you guys.