Now that my entire being isn't laser-focused on getting us to Boston... old past Issues and behaviors are resurfacing. I mean old, like early teens
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Read the whole damned thing. Does that make be a big damned LJ friend? *grin*
It's funny (not in the "ha-ha" way) how the voices of our past keep haunting us in the present. I know that in my case, the ghosts of my mother and father, who died when I was very young and not-ready-for-it, continue to walk the halls in my mind. I guess that in a way we're all Jacob Marley, doomed to drag along with us the chains that we forge in life... or sometimes the chains forged for us.
But I've found that as I acknowledge those voices, listen to them, deal with them, let then have their way and then tell them "NO" and put them away... I find that the more I do this, and the more I don't keep it all locked away, the easier it becomes to carry those chains. Not because they're lighter... but because doing so makes me stronger. And it will make you stronger, too. Remember, you are mighty!
We all get to walk our own road, and bear our own burden. But one day, if we learn how to deal with it all, we'll all get to the same place.
It's funny (not in the "ha-ha" way) how the voices of our past keep haunting us in the present. I know that in my case, the ghosts of my mother and father, who died when I was very young and not-ready-for-it, continue to walk the halls in my mind. I guess that in a way we're all Jacob Marley, doomed to drag along with us the chains that we forge in life... or sometimes the chains forged for us.
But I've found that as I acknowledge those voices, listen to them, deal with them, let then have their way and then tell them "NO" and put them away... I find that the more I do this, and the more I don't keep it all locked away, the easier it becomes to carry those chains. Not because they're lighter... but because doing so makes me stronger. And it will make you stronger, too. Remember, you are mighty!
We all get to walk our own road, and bear our own burden. But one day, if we learn how to deal with it all, we'll all get to the same place.
See you at the finish!
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