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So the bottom of this post which i am too lazy to cut is an open letter to someone who once read this but i am not sure if he still does, dont read it if you dont want, I just needed to get it off my chest.
Before that though, I now have a 92 toyota camry sitting in my driveway... now it is just finding the time to do all of the necessary repairs... good thing it is nothing too rediculous, and most of it I can do... Mike will have to help with the alternator hoses, but I can do all of the rest. not saying he won't help, as putting new struts on a car sucks, but since we will both be working it will be pretty quick work once we get started. It really needs a lot, new struts, brakes, hoses, a new tire, the latch on the hood needs to be fixed and we have to figure out if the power steering is out bc of lack of fluid or if it is out bc of the altenator... oh well.
KOMIAC next week, I am stoked. and luke is in town this week!
I always know not to go back and read posts from old people in my life, but I alwas do it anywas, and it always depresses me.
I don't know if you read this but I am thinking about you. not entirely in that way, though if I am to be honest a little bit in that way. mainly just wishing we could have been friends. I think we both know we were doomed from the start... were both too stubborn and strong willed... clash of the titans neh. I know i miss you as a person, but I cant figure out if the other part is you or the concept of you, considering no one else has even batted an eyelash my way since you... which was a year ago last week by the way. I bet you didn't feel it as much as I did. Oh well... one of these days I will get up the courage to say hi again, just as an old friend...
not that it would matter... from what I read, you are quite content, I doubt you even remember me... you have said things in the past few months with him that you never said with me... and yeah, I can't help but be a little jealous when you talk about him waiting asleep in your bed, thinking that used to be me who was sleeping while you toiled away at your computer... but then i remember how frustrated that made me, and I am glad that you have found someone who tolerates that, i just had my pet peeves... we all do.
hope all is well
<3 Shades
Before that though, I now have a 92 toyota camry sitting in my driveway... now it is just finding the time to do all of the necessary repairs... good thing it is nothing too rediculous, and most of it I can do... Mike will have to help with the alternator hoses, but I can do all of the rest. not saying he won't help, as putting new struts on a car sucks, but since we will both be working it will be pretty quick work once we get started. It really needs a lot, new struts, brakes, hoses, a new tire, the latch on the hood needs to be fixed and we have to figure out if the power steering is out bc of lack of fluid or if it is out bc of the altenator... oh well.
KOMIAC next week, I am stoked. and luke is in town this week!
I always know not to go back and read posts from old people in my life, but I alwas do it anywas, and it always depresses me.
I don't know if you read this but I am thinking about you. not entirely in that way, though if I am to be honest a little bit in that way. mainly just wishing we could have been friends. I think we both know we were doomed from the start... were both too stubborn and strong willed... clash of the titans neh. I know i miss you as a person, but I cant figure out if the other part is you or the concept of you, considering no one else has even batted an eyelash my way since you... which was a year ago last week by the way. I bet you didn't feel it as much as I did. Oh well... one of these days I will get up the courage to say hi again, just as an old friend...
not that it would matter... from what I read, you are quite content, I doubt you even remember me... you have said things in the past few months with him that you never said with me... and yeah, I can't help but be a little jealous when you talk about him waiting asleep in your bed, thinking that used to be me who was sleeping while you toiled away at your computer... but then i remember how frustrated that made me, and I am glad that you have found someone who tolerates that, i just had my pet peeves... we all do.
hope all is well
<3 Shades